be satisfied with myself

I’m never good enough

I am fairly satisfied with myself so there is no point having this up as something I want to do. I am very happy with who I am, who I have been in the past and who I am becoming. I only wish that others around me were as satisfied with me as I am with myself.

I HAVE NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OFF, I AM A GOOD PERSON BUT THERE IS SO MUCH TO CRITICISE ABOUT ME. I AM MY WORST ENEMY. I LIVE COMPARING MYSELF TO THE WORLD. I WANT TO BE IN PEACE WITH MYSELF I JUST DONT KNOW HOW BECAUSE I AM CONSTANTLY REMINDED OF WHAT I AM NOT. HOW I SHOULD BE THINNER. MY HAIR SHOULD BE LONGER. I SHOULD BE TALLER. SMARTER. LESS OPINIANATED. LESS NICE. MORE NICE I AM JUST LOST.

of course u can be satisfied with who u are because u are an original human being and one of a kind because only u can be u, there’s a religious or spiritual anticipation that this inclines to satisfied about. A man walked into a painting shop. He saw two paintings w/ the same pictures except that 1 was larger and the other was smaller. The larger one cost $30, while the smaller one cost $80. He asked the cashier why is this pricing like this even if these are the same picture. The cashier man said it’s because this large one is a carbon copy, while this smaller one is a handcrafted original by the only God

But I don’t think I ever will be…

There is one thing that could make me stay inside or outside all by myself all day long…thats reading. I’ve tried painting and such, but its not the same…I do love to read though

You know when people say they need “me time”? I cant do it. It looks so, well…satisfying, to just chill with yourself wrapped up in your own thoughts. People always look so in their element. I can’t do it, I seem to need people around me, otherwise I feel a little detatched and lonely. I’m not quite sure how to get over this…