I have been with my girlfriend for about 1 year and 8 months. We always got along well and we said we wanted to be together forever. We were even talking about moving in together. Then, I started a new job working nights 3:30 to 11:30. About a month later she started a new job at Walmart working in the electronics department. She worked all different hours. We couldn’t see each other as much. She works with mostly guys and became friendly with them all. To back things up alittle she used to be very shy and not talk a lot around people. So she gets to Walmart and I guess she came out of her shell. She talks to everyone all the guys. There is this guy that I noticed he wrote her every single day on myspace. All of the sudden I was like WTF! So I said something to her. Then they started texting each other all of the time. She texts everybody though like that. I know she would never cheat on me she is not like that. I told her that I was very uncomfortable with him and could she maybe keep there friendship at work. We ended up fighting about it over and over. She told me I was controlling and all this other crap. She said “What? Am I not allowed to have friends?” After all of the fight she told me okay. The whole time I said to her I think he likes you has a crush on you. She said no he doesn’t that he woild
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Ok we dated for just under three years, living together for a year. We seemed so perfect, everything was fine, until I was offered a fantastic opportunity to work in China for a while.
So i left for China and we decided to stay together, two months later I came back.
Now that is the basics and how the decline started. When I came back from China she says I was different, I still loved her obviously but she claims I was treating her differently, neglecting her and I dont doubt that I was because at times I did neglect her.
So we were happy again after a month when I was back and then we started university again in october. Because I had gone to China she had moved in with a friend of hers and her friends 2 male friends. I was ok with this because I loved and trusted her. It seems I was wrong to.
After a month of living with these people (of whom did not like her until they met her and found out how pretty she was then they couldnt get enough). She started losing contact with me, not wanting to see, wanting to be with them which I understood because they were new friends and I had new friends also. But her friends were turning her against me, I dont know why, they spread lies of which I proved to her were lies but the sun still shone out of their arses in her eyes. So I started getting paranoid and I told her that we need to sort this out or I am gone, I didnt want to play second best to a bunch of liars she had just met.
Well she chose their side and it turned out she was sleeping with one of them (and from what I heard other people also). I was horrified to hear of this.
So things ended, but she still kept coming back trying to keep me on a leash saying that ‘after this year is over we can move in together’ well I am sorry but I was not prepared to have that.
Its been 7 months now and I still think of her, we parted company and I told her not to contact me (a month ago) because she just hurts me by saying nasty things about me and how great her new friends are and so on. I couldnt take it so I told her to just not contact me. So I cut all ties from her but I cannot stop thinking of her, I still love her so much, I had planned long before we split to ask her to marry me on our graduation day (which would have been july 18th).
Do not get me wrong I am sure I am not innocent, I neglected her a couple of times by going out with my friends and not hers and I guess this pushed her into his arms. As far as she has told me since we stopped talking she was single but I dont know much about her anymore or whether to trust her because she became a liar. She used to say she was going to her parents home one weekend and I would later find out that her and him were at a hotel together (I suppose she lied to protect me from hurt).
Sometimes I feel like contacting her but I am worried that she is just laughing at this game she made of hurting me, reeling me in then pushing me away but still claiming she wants me and her to be together forever.
I just dont know what to do, if anything. Any help and advice would be fantastic.
But, if I get a girl, I will dump her like I have the boys…and, will probably want to get her back until I find someone else to play with.
when i think i got her back all i can do is lose her again. fed up with this hide and seek game :(((
1. find a birthday present
2. make the ‘birthdaygirl’ happy :)
3. s.y.p. (swallow your pride), which is the toughest :(
too mush pride doesn’t do any good. may be time to swallow a little bit of it. :) :P
on second thought, maybe not, since i`ve slept really well since and not as tense and paranoid as used to be and laugh more, the things she does to other people instead of me is giving my heart and soul a rest… and a i told you so is soo good every now and then!!
jaheees!! how come whenever someone has everything layed out all n all nice going well some sodd comes along and steals it all in a wink!! whats with that?? what did i do that lead to this… says its cos i love you too much warra warra i`m hurting you… i will fix that sodd up very nicely and then i will have my life back… damn backstabbers, like in that movie: The Net with Sandra Bullock – she was only minding her own business and having a drink when some arse erases everything and tries to kill her absolutely dead soos `n arme mossie!
