have a positive outlook

I always look at the negative side of things…..

I know that my being negative was a result of inheriting my Dad’s thinking. He claimed he was a realist. When I met the Lord, that thinking changed considerably, but I have struggles with my lack of belief that He has my best interests at heart. I have also seen, to my pleasant surprise, that many of the things I sooo worried about never happened… : ) I refuse to be a victim – even of myself..

but I find that it’s a struggle sometimes. I’m especially bad at this about relationships-I’m very pessimistic about things working out but I think that has a lot to do with self esteem too. It’s so tiring being negative, it sucks the life out of you -I have to chill a bit…