Why am I so angry? My husband ‘pushes all of my buttons’ and it gets me so angered inside! I try to figure out why and I end up feeling so rejected and not loved. He tells me he doesn’t love me and feels like our marriage was a mistake. This has a tremendous ‘hold’ on me! I get so depressed just thinking about the last 14 years (yes, 14) I’ve invested, two darling children, moved across the country for him, etc.
He says I’m ‘volatile’ and bounce around from emotion to emotion. Well, welcome to the world of women! I am passionate about things, have emotions that are normal and shouldn’t be ‘judged’ for them. Perhaps YOU have issues, buddy! Anger is just an emotion, it’s what you do with it that matters! I’ve never hit anyone, turned to drugs or anything like that. But, I’m only HUMAN and I have a right to express myself!!
Why can’t I just accept he doesn’t love me? Why do I feel so trapped? I am not happy! I need to get to a place where I can live my life and be happy. No, we won’t divorce for our kids’ sake, but how can I live in this hell in the meantime? I want to be happy for my children! How?? This is so hard!!! I can’t just ‘fake it’ and walk around like nothing’s wrong with a pasted-on smile!!
Faith? Strength? Belief in miracles? I’m trying! I used to find (& still do) happiness with horses and riding. Thank God (literally) I still have that at least. But, God didn’t intend us to only fill our lives with hobbies. I need a partner in life, not a roommate!!
