Learn to like myself more

I’ve been considering marking this goal done for a while and now I think I will really do it. I have started to like myself a lot more compared to the situation over a year ago.
This past year my self-esteem has really started to blossom. This has been a very good time for me and I’ve really evolved into a much happier, more satisfied person.
Of course there are still things I don’t like about myself too much – there will always be these things, it goes with the territory. I know that no one is perfect and I don’t have a problem with it.

And now I just need to finish things with my subgoal. :) Here it goes, the last stretch! Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself. Phew, this’ll be quite the task!

77. I like that I’m not a bad singer, haha. (Would not be in my nature to say that I am a good singer, so I have to turn it around. ;>)
78. I like that I am sensitive and not a cold person. Sometimes I can be too sensitive, I guess, but I’m getting better with it.
79. I don’t want to think about how many times I’ve crossed this over but since it’s not on the list at the moment, I’ll take it in once again, hopefully for good this time: I like that I am a girlfriend.
80. I like that I walk exactly like my father, apparently.
81. I like that I can wear most colours and they don’t look too weird on me.
82. I like the mole on my right ankle. It’s situated right in the middle of my ankle, in the front, and I think it looks cool.
83. I like that I have pretty good blood veins, I haven’t had problems with them being too hard to find or something. :D
84. I like that my stretch marks have faded and are almost unnoticeable nowadays. (But I still don’t like the fact that I have them, duh. :z)
85. I like my stomach, I guess. It’s not flat or anything cool like that, but it’s an alright tummy. Could be worse, definitely. And I like that I have these very sensitive spots there, you can ask Antonie more about them. ;)
86. I like my navel.
87. I like that I’ve never had any problems with my teeth (even though they’re a tad crooked :P).
88. I like that I’m a Taurus.
89. I like that I have my eyebrow piercing back now. ♥
90. I like that I have the same middle name as my mother and my sister: Kaarina.
91. I like that I’m unique in the way that I am the only child of my mother and my father.
92. I like that I don’t really obsess about material things.
93. I like that I’m taking a huge leap of faith and being brave enough to go to London to stay with Antonie. n__n
94. I like that I can make good desserts and sweets! ;D
95. I like my allergies. I know, it sounds really weird, but I’d rather like them than hate them since there’s really nothing I can do about them. And they are also a part of the complex system that is me, they define me in a way.
96. I like that I was born two weeks early; that way I’m not a Gemini! :D
97. I like that I studied in a special high school for writers and I did well there. I loved that place and I got the world’s best friends from there. Opisto ♥
98. I like that I can fit into size S shirts now! :D It’s incredible! Am I really that small all of a sudden?
99. I’ve been thinking about this a lot and now I think I can actually put this one here, too: I like my breasts. They’re not big or anything, but some people seem to like them a lot so I guess they must be alright after all. :)
100. I like that I like myself now. Haha! ;)

I hope I haven’t repeated anything at any point. I’ve tried to be really careful about this and check everything but I’ll certainly make corrections if someone happens to notice that I have the same thing here twice.
Thanks for all the cheers I’ve gotten on this goal over the past year! There’s a total of 120 cheers and this has always been my most cheered goal. So thank you ♥

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.

76. I like that I am a loving person.
Love is good. ♥

Ah, I’ve been feeling so good lately. I’m just happy. It’s amazing. It sounds weird when I talk about it, I make it sound odd somehow… but in any case, things are good. Very good.
^{Fuzzy photos, yay!}

Alright. I am going to sit here and list 25 new things I like about myself. Even though it’s very very hard to think of any more things, I’m running out of ideas. _{Like I wouldn’t have anything else to do right now, like say schoolwork, psh.} Let’s see how long it takes me – the time is now 12:10.

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.

51. I like that my forehead is not small, it’s a pretty good sized forehead.
52. I like the shape of my face. I’m not sure in which category it fits, I guess it might be a mix. At least I can’t pick just one.
53. I like that my ears are not from the same pair. That sounds weird but it’s true! :D My right earlobe is different from my left one. _{I can take photos some time to prove this.}
54. I like that I’m not religious. Religion just isn’t my thing and I’m happy with it.
55. I like that I’m very prone to magical, mystical things. Everything that concerns for example fairies fascinates me to no end.
56. I like that, for the most part, I am healthy.
57. I like that I have not let myself become cynical and hard despite of the negative things that have happened during my life so far.
58. I like that I’m Finnish. Finland is a very good country to live in, like they say “it’s like winning the lottery to be born in Finland”. I guess I’m not the most patriotic person out there, but I do love my country. (But whether I want to spend the rest of my life here… I don’t know. I might be a bit too restless for that.)
59. I like that I have such wonderful relationships with all the members of my family, especially with my mother. ♥
60. I like my shoulders. {shrugs}
61. I like that I have long, quite slender limbs.
62. I like the skin on my arms, it’s very soft.
63. I like my back. Especially my lower back now that I have these two little pits (I don’t really know what to call them) there – I didn’t have them before and I used to admire people who had them. (That sounds weird, ehe.) And now I have them myself! _{Don’t ask me how they got there, I haven’t got a clue.}
64. I like my birthmarks. I only have two of them, one on my back and one below my right breast. They’re really light and almost unnoticeable, but I like the fact that I have ‘em.
65. I like all the new moles I’ve gotten recently, especially the three little dots near my hip bones.
66. I like my wrists.
67. I like my toes, I guess they’re nice. And I can do funny tricks with them! :D I can spread the toes on my left foot really wide (but not the ones on my right foot, it’s odd).
68. I like my handwriting.
69. I like my eyelids.
70. I like that I’m a semi-vegetarian. That means that I don’t eat red meat (pork and beef) but I do still use fish and poultry. I’ve sticked with this diet for three years now. :)
71. I like that I have pretty long hair. I used to have really short hair when I was growing up and I would not go back to that style, no matter how much someone might pay me! My hair stays long, period.
72. I like that I have apparently become more attractive to the opposite sex during the past year. I’m still actually quite amazed by this radical change, I’m not used to it yet. But it’s a good thing, of course.
73. I like that I’m cautious and that I don’t just dive into things head first without giving it some thought.
74. I like that I have eye for beauty.
75. I like my ribcage. :D

Gosh, I did it! :D And it didn’t even take me forever, whoa: the time is now 14:17. I’m really improving. :) But I was really grasping for straws there at some points and I had to check the previous entries over and over again so that I wasn’t saying the same things as I already have.
Yay for me! n__n

25 more to go!

Last week, as my mother and I were going to the sauna, I saw my image in the mirror. I have never really liked my naked body, but now, for the first time in my life, I stopped to look at myself without frowning and thought “huh, I don’t look so bad”. That was a huge step for me.
I’m not overweight, I have relatively good skin, I’m mostly quite well proportioned, I have long limbs. I should be very grateful for these things.

Of course there are still lots of things that I don’t like about my body, but I guess that’s just normal. It’s rare for a human being to be completely satisfied with his/her body.
But I think I have now taken a step in the right direction. :)

_{Points for the one who can find me in that mirror photo from the Natural History Museum! :D}

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.

48. I like that I don’t normally interrupt people or talk over them. (I think doing that is really rude. Also, since I am a pretty quiet person, at least in bigger crowds and with people that I’m not very familiar with, I get run over easily and it frustrates me sometimes.)
49. I like the fact that I have learnt to let things go more easily nowadays. I’ve realized that there’s really no point in worrying and feeling bad about things that have happened already since there’s really nothing you can do about them anymore now. I’ve started to feel lighter because of that and I like it.
50. I like the little ‘bump’ I have in the middle of my lower lip. I have no idea what it really is or why it’s there, but I don’t mind. :D

Halfway done, hell yeah!

I think I’ve also started to like my legs and feet more, yay. :) Still have some work to do ‘til I really like ‘em but this is a good start.

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.

44. Reintroducing this one: I like that I am a girlfriend. (I do not think that the fact whether you’re in a relationship or not defines you, no. I merely think it’s a nice feeling to be part of a pair.)
44. I like that I’m organized and like to keep things neat and tidy.
45. I like that I’m goofy and silly.
46. I like the fact that I just realized a couple of days ago that I am, in fact, thin. :) I don’t think I’ve ever considered myself to be thin before.
47. I like my nails. I think I have pretty good nails, I never let them get very long.

Eh, I’m running out of things to list. :’D This will take me forever.

Felt really good about being me yesterday. That was a really nice feeling, haven’t had those too much. But I think they’re increasing nowadays.
I also felt really cute! n _ n (I liked my outfit I picked out for the concert, much nicer than the corset I had thought about earlier.) And I think I, for the most part, look much better in nature than in photos; sometimes I just manage to get lucky shots of myself.

Ps. This goal now has 100 cheers. Thanks, everyone. :)

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.
36. I like my hip bones. (I like other people’s hip bones as well, I guess I have a ‘thing’ for them, heh.)
37. I like my lips.
38. I like that yesterday I was brave enough to ask A to be my boyfriend. (He said yes, btw.)
39. I like that I’m more outgoing nowadays.
40. I like that I’m starting to feel less ashamed for my body and my whole appearance.
41. I like that I’ve been doing well while living on my own.
42. I like that I’m quite independent.
43. I like that sometimes I can look into the mirror and think “hey, I actually look somewhat cute now”.

Hey look, some progress finally! (:

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.
31. I like that I’ve began to feel somewhat pretty-ish at times.
32. I like that I’m polite in most situations.
33. I like that I have my witty moments and know how to respond to (most) people when they’re acting silly. :D
34. I like my moles (well, at least most of them) – and I have loooots of them! I’m constantly getting new ones, as well.
35. I like that I can curl, flip and twist my tongue all around. :D Well eh, not all people can do that! (Maybe I should have photographic evidence of my tongue movements so you’d understand what I mean by all this, eh.)

I really wish I could learn to like my legs and feet. :z
I’ve always had problems with them, I’ve never really been happy with them. But I’m trying to have a more positive take on them, maybe this’ll get better with time.

Well, since subgoal-thingy #28 (“28. I like that I am a girlfriend now. :D”) isn’t true anymore
I guess I have to make up for it.

Subgoal: Identify 100 things that I like about myself.
28 II. I like that I am alive.

That’s all I can do right now, sorry guys.