keep my house clean

But I have finally broken down and am having a housekeeping service come today to give me a quote. We are severely cutting back our spending in all areas, but this is something we desperately need right now. As a full-time student, I’m pushing full steam ahead to finish college and get to graduate school, which will take a few more years. My dear spouse is working to support us.

We work together as a family to try to keep up, but often we can only really get to laundry, dishes, grocery shopping, taking out the garbage and that’s pretty much it!

So, I’m hoping this service can help take up the slack until we are able to take it back again.

I haven’t been doing much of any cleaning… Just waiting until I can’t stand it any more to pick some stuff up. I know it’s bad, and I know it’s unhealthy, but I just haven’t had the energy or strength to bother. It’s the last thing on my mind right now. Perhaps this is symptomatic of depression, an emotional state I am predisposed to.

Today, however, I did work in the kitchen, hall area, bathroom, and in the living room a little bit. Tomorrow I won’t have much time, but I am going to try to get something done.

I was doing REALLY well for a while. I was on top of all the chores, the kids’ school work AND everybody was actually eating too. And then…...my sister-in-law moved in with her boyfriend. That was about four months ago. There have been a few days here and there where the house has been clean, but usually not all the rooms at one time if any of them. So….I’m trying to pick this back up again, and we’ll see how it works now.

I’m starting my 3rd week tomorrow. I did a little better last week (my 2nd week). I wasn’t as lazy as I was my first week. But I still had my lazy moments. This week should be a little better. It gets easier as it goes. So far I did the kitchen and the bathroom. This week is the dining room.

Started over again this week on my house cleaning. I have a house cleaning plan now. So I’m sticking with it this time. I also have 1 rule that I have to go by. I can’t do anything that I want to do untill all housework for the day is done first. This week was really hard. I still got in my lazy mood most of the time. Hope next week goes better. Sundays are free days. No housework at all on Sunday.

Forget my other entry. I keep starting and stopping. So I started this goal today – September 20, 2009. And I’m not going to stop this time. I want to get the downstairs done by Thanksgiving and the upstairs done by New Years Eve. I got the extra room 1/2 done today. I am going to see if I can finish it tomorrow.

Major cleaning goals for today:
- Extensive clean of the cat litter area
- Getting all clothes washed
- Getting recyclables out
- Getting stuff from Mayhem weekend all put away

i’ve been keeping my room clean but it’s going to take a while for everything else. i have to settle iunto a new rouitine now anyways so i have to find time to work around my scheldule. but once i know how everything’s going to be i can figure something out for the rest of the house.

Okay, I almost invited a guy back to my place last night before I remembered that the bathroom and kitchen are disaster areas! It was spotless a week ago…I need to work a bit harder on maintaining it so I don’t need to do massive cleaning binges!

Having company over on Saturday so I’m going to get a head start on it tonight. The bathroom and kitchen will be GLEAMING before I go to bed. That’s a promise!

I’m beginning to think the only way I can do this is to live by myself. My boyfriend has lived his whole life in a pig stye, and I can’t change his habbits, and I can’t stand living the way we do for much longer. It stresses me out so much. More than I ever thought a mess could. It is getting to the point where I almost don’t think it’s worth trying to keep our relationship going, if it’s always going to be this way. The stress is so bad that it has started causing us to fight more than we ever did before we lived together, because I’m always on edge. Because the mess gets me so stressed, it doesn’t take much else to send me over the edge and I start nagging him about everything, and if he gets deffensive or frustrated with me, I break down. I’ve never felt so unhappy so constantly in my whole life, and I hate it. I hate what I become when I’m around the mess. I hate how discontent and stressed I am. I don’t deserve that, and niether does he. It gets to the point that I’m just depressed. I don’t want to do anything, or go anywhere. I’m not tired, but all I do is lay around. It’s not worth cleaning, because it won’t even last a day. I just don’t see any other way around that. I’m about to give up on “us”.