End unhealthy relationships

be honest with yourself about who you really are and who appreciates you for it. everything else becomes an on the spot acquaintance :)

Not sure what to say about this, but I’ve definitely been “cleaning house” of people who aren’t good for me in the last year….

Guess it’s kind of like taking out the trash or changing the cat litter … it sucks when you’re in the midst of it (very painful, even if it’s your own choice) ... but you sure feel better about yourself and your surroundings afterwards….

So…now I’m living with JH4 for the rest of the month until my apt starts. A month ago, I would have been over the moon about it, but oh how things change! The day I drove up for my interview, he called and basically warned me that there was a girl he had been seeing for a week or two. When did that happen?? Just two weeks before, he was supposed to visit me!! I congratulated him, then overanalyzed my feelings for the whole 5-hr drive. I haven’t met her yet, which I think is a good thing. It’s not like I’m madly in love with him, but that doesn’t mean I can see him with another girl quite yet.

Unhealthy relationships are so damn sneaky!!!

Graduating from college and moving to a new city reeeally helps with this one!! There are several people from school I will never miss, and others I’m downright glad I’ll never see again:

The Hairbraiders – the girls who, in middle school, would sit in a circle and braid each other’s hair. There’s no room in the circle for anyone else, but you can sit outside and watch. Who knew this would still be happening in college!! I just hope when I was friends with them, I wasn’t like that.

The Shelf-Life Friend – always has a new BEST FRIEND!!, and spends all her time with the friend du jour. The problem? At one point, she and I were actual best friends. As soon as the relationship required some effort from her, she split.

The Yes-it’s-true-we’ve-known-each-other-since-freshman-year-but-no-you’re-still-not-getting-in-my-pants-thank-you-very-much-sir Guy – I think the name says it all for this one, no?

I guess my first step needs to be determining which relationships are unhealthy.

I haven’t been talking to JB at all until today. We talked for a little, and once I started telling him things that actually kind of matter, he peaced out. It sucks, because we used to be really close, but now every time I talk to him it just reminds me how worthless he made me feel.

I need to talk to JH4, figure out where we stand so I can move on if that’s what I need to do. Until then, I guess I’m going to still have this limbo feeling…

I just hope I can stay strong . . .