apologise

There are a few people over the past couple of years I have hurt, and I need to apologise to them.
The main person is my ex-boyfriend Adam.

I feel that if I do this, it will help me on my quest for self-improvement.

Kate x

Of whatever the problem was in the first place, and in this instance, just won’t. I don’t think the matter has been fully addressed, but not for wont of trying – but I’ve done it. Its all I can do.

And I feel so much better now!

Well, we happened to be in the same place at the same time (and there also happened to be a bottle of wine present) so it made it a whole lot easier to attempt to communicate again. And I think it worked, to some extent. We’ve spent some time together since, and tho I don’t think it will be the same, it is a giant step in the right direction. I am very grateful for the opportunity.

a few nights ago. I started a row with my friend over nothing, and she’s forgiven me, even though I haven’t apologised yet. I want to wait til I see her though, so I can apologise face to face

I’ve given it a red hot go, and, in line with my other goal “Accept it, change it, forget it”, must now just accept that she is not willing to accept my apology, and thus I must move on. Its a pity. Life is too short for this kind of thing.

I have tried a couple of times, but with no success thus far. I was a jerk and should not have said those things to her – unfortunately, apologising means needing access to do so, which she is denying me – I totally understand. I just wish I could take it back.

With all my heart, all that is me and all that I will ever be.

I can apologise no more, just not repeat the same mistakes and expect a different result. I know the truth, I am the one who lives with my actions and feelings everyday. Time to focus on the present and positive

Well time has passed, although I still have not completely forgiven myself, I am learning to look at my actions in a different light. I realize that I am blessed to have this knowledge. I am leaning toward a new reality.