not be depressed anymore

Wow, well i’m a guy, so therefore i suck when it comes to relationships. Although i’m a great guy, i’m a shitty boyfriend and the one person who made me not hate life dumped me. Since i go to a small school i see her and all of her friends everyday. The friends i have left are kinda flaking out of my, and i’m facing the end of my senior year alone. I have no job prospects, and the only feeling i remember every having in excess is self loathing. I don’t know what i want. Sometimes i think i do, but i put that thing on a pedestal, and say “when i get that thing i’m going to be happy” I get it and i’m still just a shitty as i ever was. How do i make myself happy?

after a year of just urh i hate life. ive finally overcome my stoopid depressed ways. i still get it sometimes… but not as bad.
i think it was just falling into the wrong crowd a bit? idk. but whatever it was im glad i moved on. =D.

It took me about five years, so don’t lose hope. Doesn’t mean you’ll never feel sad again though, but realize that that’s ok.