think more before speaking

It’s been a while since I said anything awful and just wanted to instantly take it back. Of course, this is still a goal of mine, and will be forever, I imagine.

But it’s been a long time since I unintentionally hurt someone’s feelings, and I kept myself well in check during two different visits with Donald’s family, and have done relatively well with my own family over the past two months.

Done, but I’ll keep working on it.

Things had been going so well, I thought perhaps we were past the part where I just spit things out and then wanted to die on the spot. Then I said the worst thing ever to the girl next to me in line for the bathroom during the LSAT. Here’s hoping she doesn’t get in to the same school I do. Good GoD.

All right, I feel a little bit better about this. I’ve apologized to a number of people affected by the verbal terror trend. They accepted apologies, and in one case, somebody hadn’t even been offended. That’s good, but I still said that stuff. I’ve been a little more careful lately … either that, or I’ve been avoiding people more lately.

I added this goal to my list because it seems like every time I’ve opened my mouth in the past two weeks, I’ve inadvertently said something just TERRIBLE. I don’t mean to say this stuff, it just comes out wrong, or my mouth beats my brain, or I just don’t realize what I’m saying until I’ve said it and it’s already over. Whew! Rather than wallow in self-hate, I want to work on it. I just … don’t know what to do other than think more carefully. Counting before I answer not an option – that sort of thing only enrages me and makes me more likely to say not-nice things due to irritability.

Expecially when debating one thing or another I want to give myself the time to think things over whenever possible – not just throw out the first thought on your mind – it’s no good…

Less trouble