be healthy

had some really tough time for one week. physically i was sick. had bad case of tonsillitis accompanied by one of the worst PMS (and i have major PMS problem), and later on periods (obv). had to fill out a HUGE form and copy every document 4 times (in all it weighed 1 kg i think). at every step things went wrong. wrong sized paper, net died, printer stopped printing. it was week from hell. i cried and cried and…

but in the end everything worked fine. i’m good now. not worrying abt my bro’s problem. but has to work on my studies. i started exercising today bcuz till day before yest i was still having fever. i’m controlling my portions.

my weight is still the same. thank god it hasn’t increased the way i hogged on a few days (but still not much considering my emotional state)!!

mom is planning to start morning walk. maybe i will join her (if i was not so much afraid of stray dogs). till the stationary bike rules!

here to better days..!!! :)

I had 2 tacos, a sourdough jack, lemondade, and fries for dinner. Blech. Yay me…oy…

Started a new medication in August that has me feeling healthy again! Still not where I was when I was 23 but hey, who is? Time to start getting back on the exercise wagon now that I can eat properly!

my brother says he is depressed and is not going for his post graduation. my parents almost paid 200,000 US dollars as his college admission.

he was the one who selected the college and did all the formalities. but after a month he just backed out. my parents are very depressed as there is no one to handle their practice after this.

my bro is not even thinking about an alternate career. he has no sense of responsibility. and being depressed at one time i know that he is really not depressed, he has just gotten so used to leisure of life, where he gets everything at home without working a single second for it. and… the whole of the money is gone!

i’ve entirely different reasons to be pissed (& to be many other things) because i waited for almost 6 months for my bro to go back and pick up where he left. i postponed the discussion of my career for him.

he was supposed to undergo therapy and learn from our local doctors so that he feel more comfortable at his college. but he spent almost all that time sitting in front of the computer. i’m really upset (angry? frustrated? blue? anxious?) because my parents wasted so much money on him and i don’t know if they will be able to pay tuition for my choice of post graduate course.

i’m really down at this time and have no time to think about ‘being healthy’. gotta sort out my career first. but i’ll try to control my emotional eating and continue whatever exercise i can get into my schedule.

one this is for sure… i’m not gonna wait for anything to move further in my chosen direction in career.

wish me luck, guys…
and if u read through this long post… thanks :) u r so kind.

I have spent the pass three weeks in and out of the hospital which has totally meant that a lot of my work that I have put in went a little to pot. This gets frustrating as I get into my eating and workout routines and it gets stuffed when I am in pain for days on end and I have to slow down or sometimes stop because the pain is so intense. However, today I am just pissed off, angry as this bloody disease robbed me of so much, my whole life got stunted, and although I have re-arranged a lot of things and in a way I can see the good in the horror of this disease it just continually throws up more crap just when I think I got this thing beat or at least that I have made friends with it; so due to all the chemo treatment I had I have already been left with having to use a prescriptive shampoo because I can’t use anything else because my hair/scalp has changed. My skin has altered and I can only use pure products with no perfume, sometimes I just want to be able to lather myself in some glorious body butter that all my friends are raving about. Then I developed a number of allergies: moulds, birch trees, all grasses and dogs, which put rest to my getting a dog and now they reckon I could be dairy and wheat intolerant, I am just sick of this shit and today I just feel pissed off. Feels like a constant battle to achieve a goal that just continually throws up more mud than water.

i’m going cycling with my mom & bro. after bro goes off to college i’m gonna continue with mom, as both of us have tummies the size of 5-6 months pregnancy… :P

we ride for about 1hr, covering 14 km. i get tired easily & hold them back… but good thing is that i’ll only improve if i continue with it. & oh how i wanna feel that feeling of strength and lightness in my feet.

food wise it’s pretty ok. not binging but not dieting either.

will weigh-in on coming sunday, that’s 6 days from now!

lets see… :D

p.s. i’m also making other changes in life, like learning to cook a bit at home and it does makes me happy.
so if u r sad out of boredom go learn something new! it works… :)

it’s been busy. what with festival season and engagements in family. i havn’t been able to exercise but i’ve taken a graceful step or two.

first of all i quit drinking daily cup of milk. milk makes me put on weight. it does! no kidding… i’ve substantial experience (evidence) to prove it.

second i’ve cut down on my total daily intake or curd and fruits. i went overboard thinking that these things are healthy. now instead of two portion sized 2 cups a day, i eat two portion sized 1 cup a day. that is i eat two portions in one sitting.

thirdly, i’ve new insight that instead of focusing on being healthy ‘within this period of time’ i’ve to focus on changing on my lifestyle.

loosing weight with drastic measures will only lead to piling that weight again after i get back to my normal lifestyle. so, being healthy is actually a change in your lifestyle. it’s not an agenda!

I REPEAT= “Getting healthy is a change in your lifestyle, not an agenda or mission. The change should be positive, sustainable and make you feel, look and be a better person.”

On my way to being healthy!!
Friday was like The Perfect Storm. I had ordered two fundraiser cupcakes a while back.. well they came (and went) on Friday. Friday is also Pizza Friday, and I didn’t stop myself at one piece. Friday also turned out to be Movie and Popcorn Friday, to my chagrin. My sister and her girlfriend bought the popcorn (and sprite!) but I had some of both.
However, although Friday was a junk food shitstorm, the rest of the weekend I ate very well, and had lots of fruit and vegetables every day.
Also, on Saturday my sister, her girlfriend and I all went to the park and played basketball until the sun set. I didn’t realize it was such a workout until the next day.. and today! WOW I am so incredibly sore, all over!! The basketball is in my trunk; maybe I’ll practice a little after work today? ;)
I haven’t weighed myself in a while; tomorrow morning I’ll give it a shot! HOPEFULLY IT’S GOOD. Although my junk food binge on Friday probably undid any other good I accomplished.
But in all, I got in some intense exercise, ate pretty well, and had fun~!

i’m 5’6”. my weight has been fluctuating ever since i entered my teens. i’m an emotional eater. i eat when i’m tensed, sad, angry or simply bored.

at my maximum weight i was 75 kg. after going to college my weight dropped to 60 kgs in first 2 yrs because i only had mess food to eat. which was unpalatable (so i didnt overeat) & low on fat too.

but then my friends circle changed. we went out eating and drinking 2-3 times a week. later on outings decreased but pressure of studies and cold wars between other friends made me depressed. plus i’d lagged behind in studies and i didn’t knew anything, which added to my blue moods.

eating chocolates became an evening ritual. fatty comforting foods my best friends. it got more intense during my internship. (several complex problems during that time… with career, friends, family, boy friend. nothing seemed to be going the right way)

when i came home after completing my graduation i weight 66kg. its been 6 months at home. i’ve nothing to do all day. just studies. i try to limit myself to healthy diet and my weight fluctuates between 65-67 kgs.

in pounds its 143.6, as noted yest.

pretty healthy u may say. but i’m not healthy.

i’ve almost no muscle mass, no stamina, my 60 yr old mom beats me during cycling. i get tired just by climbing stairs in our home few times. i feel like a heap of fat. i’m not anorexic. i like a curvy figure. but my body is sooo unfit!!!

i want to be ‘fit’ or ‘healthy’. i’ve been writing ‘loose weight, get slim’ since past 10 yrs exactly. but now nearing my 25th yr in life, i feel the need to be ‘fit’.

i may be 24 yrs old, but my body is in late middle age already. God knows what all diseases weight for me. Arthritis, diabetes, coronary diseases, hypertension, depression, cancers….!!

now that i’ve cleared a major hurdle in my career and solved some of the complex problems i’ve been facing since past couple of years and also have plenty of time and facilities at home… i’m going to reclaim my body. i’m going to build stamina and strength. i’m going to feel like a young person, which i am!

p.s.- track my progress through my entries and ur suggestions and comments are always welcome. :)

I went for a hike today and it was glorious AND I picked up my organic fruit and vegetable basket! How do ya like them apples? Hahahaha!