get over depression

methinks I’m getting sexually harassed. Got a job recently at the pub down my road- the men are fucking pervs. That I can just about deal with considering I’m behind the bar most of the time. This bouncer’s really pissing me off. Won’t stop perving on me, literally talking to another barman next to me about my ass and argh.. makes me feel so uncomfortable. Constantly trying to hug me etc and ‘talk to me.’ despite me saying that I have a bf-which I’m not even sure if I do. I called him at his time 1.30am (he went back to China for two months) and he was pissed off at me for calling. He’s been really crap with texting me these past three days since he saw his phone bill- £50 for the txts he sent to me for the past 2months.
My 2nd day at work the bouncer spanked me. I really REALLY wanted to slap him across the face. I hate it when people do that- just don’t fucking touch me! It’s worse enough that people actually perv on you while you’re working etc… and my God I hate it when people kiss my hand. I don’t want to create a negative atmosphere so soon after joining the pub/club. I wanted David’s attention… his care and … well even an attempt to would be nice. The bouncer literally got another barman and started commenting on my ass right next to me. I feel so damn selfconscious.

Meh… I don’t want to see anyone :(

I had gone through alot in life.
And I had cried daily everyday.
I even get sick.
Altough I havent cut or slitted my wrist for atleast 4 days.
And I have to admit.
I need to feel pain.
I just wanna get over with it.
Just talking JUST TYPING about it makes a knot on my belly.
And I feel down again.
I might smile,laugh,scream, but really I’m just hopeless inside.

So my whole life I’ve always had a bit of depression in me and was so much more emotional than others. About 2 years ago a boy that I loved so much and as far as I knew he loved me really broke my heart and it just broke me and I went into a deep depression. I was cutting and distant from everyone and just not good stuff but in the past about 8 months I’ve stopped and been getting along better but I still have those times that I just get majorly depressed and suicidal and I hate it cause I love life and I don’t like getting that way.. When I was about 9 a man I loved so much that was like a dad to me because my own father wasn’t around hung himself. I think I’ve always brought myself back to that and consider maybe that’s what I should do, just forget this life and go on to a better one. But I know that it’s not now and want to get myself out of the depression I am in. So I’m already starting to feel better and controling my emotions better but still got a long way to go so I sure hope one day all this will be nothing but a bad dream =)

i hate to admit it i think im having some type of depression. But i dont wanna admit myself. Im the type that likes to look happy in front of everyone, but lately due to some money problems and family ones too, ive been isolating myself alone in a room for about a month now. though sometimes i go out, even when i have fun, i know to myself that it was just forced. even my eating habits have changed. a year ago, i can be a pig when it comes to food. but ever since ive started experimenting on some stuff that i dont want to mention, my eating habits have changed. Though im over that experimenting phase of my life, still the appetite are still less than usual. nowadays, i can past 3 meals even when my stomach aches from hunger, and i just dont care. my sleep has been wierd, sometimes i sleep less maybe about 4 to 6 hours and sometimes i sleep more maybe about 9-12 hours. also when i wanna do some physical task, my body just doesnt rhyme with my mind. my sexdrive also is affected. theres times where i just wanna do it, but lately, its all just forced. guilt is also a big deal to me. its really affecting me emotionally, even when i dont understand why i feel that way. i dont really know whats going on with me, i figured its just a phase. but being almost 20 yrs old,i think i might be having some kind of depression thing. but i dont want anyone to know that i feel this way. i feel paranoid always when people ask me whats wrong. i try to tell them not directly but seems, people around me just doesnt care and wouldnt understand. so i just try to smile and laugh with them, even when im not happy at all. (feels good to let this out) ...

I think I need to be back on anti-depressants again.

i have been depressed for a few months i moved to new york and i keft my home my friends and my old school.rigth now i am tryin to get in to high school but i have no friends and i live in a apartment. i lost most of my stuff cuz my grandpa was mad at mefor leaving him becasue i use to live upstate but now i live in the city with no gf no friends a small apartment and i hate my school.i ma 16 years old and a softmore please give me some advice….before its too late

was getting better… off the antidepressants… but i think i need them again. i don’t feel like i can carry on like this. i was just about to mark this off too… every little thing is starting to make me cry again. i hate this i hate this i hate this.. :’(

I’m not gonna keep this as a goal anymore because it is only partly under my control – as much as I hate to admit that. Sometimes you just have to give over and wait it out. This is that kind of situation, luckily, and I’m giving in. For now.

I am 18 years old. I am a senior in high school, but do Running Start so i attend the community college. I am totally and completely depressed. i cry night and day. i think of suicide daily. I am now on celexa, 30 milligrams a day. i have been taking for 5 weeks and have seen no results at all. I have been with my my boyfriend for over 2 years. he says he wants to help me, but it feels like a lot of my sadness comes from him. He is always busy, he has friends, girls that find him attractive and funny and he and everyone else finds him very talented and completely likable. I cannot sleep well at night. sometimes he spends the night with me and falls right asleep. I could say i am jealous. I am always worried about him. he says i am driving him insane by always getting jealous about him hanging out with other girls. i just need help, advice. anything. I don’t know why i am like this. it feels like he is ALWAYS lying. He has lied in the pass and recently tried to hide texts from certain girls. he says he has to do this because i get mad at everything he does. :( i am in love with this boy and he says he loves me. i just need some help through this time…

worse than ever…