I recently rekindled my passion for music. I had a rough year and fell into this difficult state of apathy about a year before that and it got so intense that I was seriously planning to find something I was more passionate about. But I’ve been reconnecting with the joy and the excitement I originally had and I’ve been kind of following that for a few months and it has lead me back to music and I plan to continue to pursue this. I’ve also been playing in a really good quintet (technically a sextet because we were playing the Poulenc) and chamber music is definitely one of my big passion of mine and this is the best group I’ve played with and several other members of this group have this very contagious passion for music. I guess you can say chamber music was the spark that relit my kindling.
I don’t know how it happened but I also rekindled my general passion for living and other people. Living passionately in and out of music is so important and these life experiences can add so much depth and expression.
One thing i do need to work on is diligence. With passion, it’s a lot better but I could still be more productive and detail oriented in my practices. I am so easily distracted, but it’s often by other music or something. But at least I have passion to get me going with this.
