Not get irritated by people so much

The conclusion I’ve come to is that people are always going to be irritating. I do my best to be compassionate and not let myself dwell on rudeness and stupidity, because everyone has their own struggles, and who am I to judge? I have bad days where I’m not as kind or wise as I could be, and other people are allowed days like that as well, as long as it doesn’t cause me or others any lasting harm.

But sometimes, I’m just cranky. There’s no getting around that, and I can accept it. I do my best to not take my moods out on other people, and my best is the most I can expect from myself. I think that I’m going to call this goal done.

It’s gotten to the point where I just do not care anymore. It’s not the attitude I wanted in the end, but that’s what I’m stuck with. Even my brother found it odd.

It’s not happening as much because I’m not around people much for now. But to occupy myself, I procrastinate and not do any work.

This one girl, (I won’t give initials), has been doing this to me ever since I’ve met her. She’s friendly one day, a total asswipe the next. Today, I only asked if I could borrow a photocopy card to photocopy 2 pages after this other girl who was using it. OK, it’s hard to explain.

-Can I borrow your photocopy card, AL?
-..No.
-Please?
-(Looks away, starts chatting to other people)

Why thank you. You have been so kind. Rhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarbrhubarb.
Slightly better. It seems so petty, sigh.

It’s hard. That’s all.

It’s proving harder than first thought. Some people from school, sigh, are unbelievably ignorant and selfish. And they are/were people that I trust/ed.

This week of school is absolutely pointless.
Monday – teachers come in
Tuesday – students come in
Wednesday – Anzac Day, holiday
Thursday – students come in, again
Friday – cross country
The teachers say Friday was compulsory but meh, not going. Such a rebel. BUT. And there is a big but. My Physics exam/half yearly is on the Monday following. And everyone has to attend school the day before they have their exam/half yearly/assessment. I know, stupid rule. So, instead of doing other work like reviews and etcetc (can’t give away too much), I have to go on Friday. RHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARBRHUBARB.
Anyway, a bit off tangent. Yes, after two weeks of bliss and not seeing people, the other people in the school are getting on my nerves.
NOTHAPPYJAN
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i jst learnt 2 control it, breathe mor rather than scream abwt it! lol n now i get over fings mor quickly and learn 2 ignore people!

Hi, i really ned 2 stop being so h8ful, even my friends say i am the most h8ful person they know! i am rather h8ful i gess, so i rly shud try not 2 b horibl, and accept people how they are, even if they are annoying ;)

This is really hard, and I haven’t really made much progress. But then, I haven’t really been trying, either. It’s much easier to be annoyed inwardly and to complain to my confidantes later, than to accept that people are acting the best way they know how. I should make more of an effort to be less annoyed by little things – and by big things, too. I can’t change other people, and I’m sure I’d be much happier if I could just accept that the world isn’t always going to work the way I would like.

I’m just not really sure how to do this.