Improve my Style

Yea, I’m going for maybe a punkish sort of look. Or maybe rocker chic sort of thing. But I wanna look good in the clothes, so I’m thinkin I should lose the weight first right?

So, I’ve been doing really well with putting outfits together. Doing my hair. (lots of compliments on that one).

But I can’t help but feel that I will never look good in anything until I lose some weight. Especially my boobs and around my waist. That is an entirely new goal. Maybe I should consider this one done and move on to the losing weight goal.

bought a hair straightener (finally) and when I come home to try it out, I notice that my hair has grown out into a weird mullet. sheesh. now I have to get my haircut. back to wearing a ponytail.

its almost winter time—need to buy sweaters.

Since right now I can’t afford to buy new clothes, I’m trying a new strategy: I’m trying on ALL of my clothes and seeing how they look, what goes together, what needs to be tossed.

There are so many things I have that I never wear—its time to get out of my style rut.

now that I’m on-air from time to time—I’ve suffered a serious blow to my self-esteem.
Watching myself on tape - my god - I literally look like I’ve just been hit by a truck. My hair is pathetic. My clothes fit like rags. My body is just too big for 4:3 reality. And my crooked teeth! Sheesh!

I’m really at a loss. Its a little disconcerting when you find out what you really look like. And I don’t know what to do to fix it. The more I think about it the more depressed I get. Its taking a toll on my enthusiasm goal.

Ugh.

so I spent a little more than I should on a little wallet—a classy number.

Its a move forward for me, I’ve been using the same wallet since 2004. A childish yellow thing with a japanese cartoon cat.

after years and years of thrift store shopping, I have found it difficult to shop in “normal” retail stores. I always feel that the clothes are too staid, unoriginal and don’t project any personality. But I have recently discovered Anthropologie, yes, its expensive, yes, I don’t fit into most of the clothes. But its the only store that has clothes that make me think, wow, that is really cute. So, since this store is fortunately placed next door to my office, I am making a promise to myself to stop in every other day or so and check out the sales rack. Maybe buy myself a nice top or skirt or accessory every week.

I bought some items that I like and have incorporated some new accessories in my outfits. But my goal to do more shooting has made me wary of wearing uncomfortable clothes (just in case I’m sent out with little notice). I’m keeping a pair of jeans and converse in my desk for those moments, but still, I don’t want to have to go through a whole wardrobe change for a shoot.
Also, I think I’ve gained weight (too fearful to step on the scale) so some of the tops I usually like to wear aren’t fitting very comfortably.
I did buy some very cute silver wedge sandals—not my usual style, but I really like them. Lots of compliments on those shoes which is always thrilling.

I don’t know how to dress. I don’t have any personal style. I NEED help!