stop fucking things up

yeah do that…

should have listened to my councillor…

not going back to see her next week…too ashamed.

when am i ever gonna learn???

it doesn’t matter what the circumstances are, it doesn’t matter if something else bad happens…you CAN’T keep doing this.

No more excuses :(

o dear :(

o dearie dear dear…

i think i should go to bed before i do any more damage…

:(

i am a snotty snipey bitch tonight….

just cos you text someone being chatty and they don’t answer you for 2 hours…then you text them goodnight and they text back goodnight straight away….is that any reason to get snotty???

probably not….

ahhhhh i don’t know….that is the trouble, i DON’T KNOW anything…

...just don’t like lack of communication, is “i’m busy and can’t text you back, talk to you tomorrow” too much to ask???

or am i just being waaayyyy oversensitive…

probably…sigh…

but that is what I’D do cos otherwise it’s just bludy rude…

dammit…just go to bed, it’s 10.30pm, you’re tired anyways, go to bludy bed…:(

...and i am not drunk either, so no reason to be getting paranoid and insecure is there….

EDIT: sigh….i must be a paranoid and insecure GIRL…communicated my feelings and it already resolved itself…d’oh!!!! :)

So what’s this big secret you can’t tell me
I don’t wanna piece of this

Haven’t we all had enough
Enough for one day
I don’t wanna argue with you
You’ve got me shiverin’ in my spine

[Chorus]
If everything turned out as we had said
We wouldn’t have to sit through any of this
Maybe I would be a better fit in my own skin

I’m not gonna try to divide or ignore you
And the pieces of the puzzle that never seem to fit

I’m not playin’ hangman with you
I’ve run out of letters, let alone words
You’ve got me shiverin’ in my spine

If everything turned out as we had said
We wouldn’t have to sit here talkin’ like this
Maybe I would be a better fit in my own skin
Maybe

If everything turned out as we had planned
We wouldn’t have to go through any of this
Maybe it’ll be more simple than you could ever think

So stay right where you are
We’re snoozin’ through an alarm
Make no sudden movements
Just tell me where we are
‘Cause here I am
There you are
Snoozin’ through an alarm
Snoozin’ through an alarm

If everything turned out as we had said
We wouldn’t have to go through any of this
Maybe

Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Oh…

Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Oh…

Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Maybe… (oh…)
Oh…

:( please…

really really need to go back to that councellor next week, if i keep this shit up i will have NO friends left…:(

go to bed…........and pray you can get up on time in the morning…

you dumbarse…........:(

go to fecking bed now…right NOW

that way you will get 5 hours sleep and be way on top tomorrow :)

clean up the house work in progress…put on the dinner thank you Ronald McDonald :)
shower
eat
take your meds done
stop shaking/thinking/burning yourself
find a new place to live (in the next 3 weeks….:( )working on it
stop trying to deal with all the ex’s shit….not your problem working on it
go back to the GP…these meds are not helping you just feel worse….
look forward to: Saturday

hahahahahahaHA

good one…..

apparently impossible and happens without me even trying

i give up what the hell is the point???

completely worthless….:(