find something that makes me happy

Im game for anything that makes me happy. Not fleeting moments. We all have the smiles after cotton candy, and shit like that.

Im looking for the happy that stays.

my little brother makes me happy….
and being with my trod (true ride or die)
just sitting around with my trod acting dumb and veggieing out makes me happy….

I really enjoy cooking! And I love food so it’s good all around.

I’m keeping this goal up though, so I can keep thinking of more stuff that makes me happy.

who doesn’t like donuts!?
its everybody’s guilty pleasure,
they are always there for you and they have a hole
that sounds dirty, but holes are cool.
hope this brings a smile to someone
oh yeah flowers!

I don’t know but it would be nice…........

I decided that, this quarter, my two happy things will be volunteering and reading Chinese. They help fill in some gaps in my life (my spiritual and mental life), and now I feel fulfilled. I’ve started translating a book and emailed about volunteer opportunities.

This way, my life falls into four main goal categories.

1. Job—Get a 4.0
2. Physical—Exercise regularly, eat healthy
3. Volunteer more
4. Read in Chinese

For a while now I’ve felt like there’s something missing in my life but I couldn’t really tell what. I think pledging Phi Alpha Delta last quarter was a nice activity to take up time and keep me motivated and looking forward to something. Now that’s over and it feels like I don’t have any challenge in my life. I realized that I’m really missing being able to exercise my creative side and to give back to the community.

So I decided that my goals for this quarter are:

1. Straight A’s
2. Exercise/Healthy Eating
3. Volunteer

I’ve already made many friends, so I’m fine in that department. I plan on joining choir next quarter so that’ll be covered. I always manage to find time to relax and keep in touch with family and friends, so besides everything else, those are my three main goals. I think I’ll be happier once I really get working on all three goals, not just the first two like righ tnow.

This goal makes me sound depressed, as if there is nothing happy in my life. Which would be a lie, folks. My life is perfectly fine, if a bit boring with a routine that is getting a bit stale.

I’m looking for some new activity to enjoy, really enjoy. Maybe I’ll go join a new club or something. I want to do something where I can meet some new people and do something I enjoy that isn’t schoolwork.

I’m deciding between a political club and a business competition club. I’ll probably join one of those. I also plan to start taking some classes at the gym, not spin or step, but fun ones like dance and the like. Maybe I’ll take an art class. Anything to escape the crushing boredom of public school education.

I think I found that someone who makes me happy. It is just very hard to figure him out. I love kc to death and wished he would communicate more and better with me then what he does. I know he is in the army and its hard but I will manage.

I am always doing something for someone else. I need some sort of outlet or something I enjoy that is just for me. It’s weird that I don’t already have this established in my life. I just don’t know where to look.