be my daughters' hero

Ok, alot has changed since the last time i wrote on this: I never moved, I went back to school, life, etc, so on.

She is 3 1/2 now.

I get to spend alot more time with her now and my energy level has been way higher since I’ve put some effort recognizing and fixing it. We have lots of fun!

but things were strange for a while there. Being a hero is about being a good man and a good father which i felt like i was doing. She disliked me though for a solid 6 months. it was very tough! I mean, life is easier when your kids like you. She snapped out of it one day, all of a sudden, and now we have a very cool buddy buddy (yet I’m still the authority) relationship. Things are fantastic & we are relating!

Also, going back to school was something i wanted to do for myself but it was also to set a good example for her. I’m going for filmmaking because i can and will make a living doing what i love!

She is and will alsways be my little girl. I’ve become a better person since i met her and feel like i am role model materiel now. Here’s hoping my wife and I can continue to provide a safe, healthy, and fun home for her!

That’s currently what Isabella loves to yell @ anyone who talks to her now. Maybe I should’nt have made such a big deal of it!

I can die happy.

For all that they’ve given me in their short lives, I want to be the best role model they could ask for.

its tough to feel adequate. you could always be doing more, be more involved, somehow be a better dad. nobody tolerates me having personal time anymore, especially me. My 40 – 50 hours at work every week is supposed to be my ‘peronal time.’ Alot of my energy is spent at work so when i’m home i have to make a real effort to keep any energy up. Its tough. she always makes me smile and i love playing with her but i wish i was super dad.

All i can do is keep trying. or at this point keep trying harder. I have to be away tonight but tomarrow i’ll come home and play wityh her for a few hours. take her for a walk. eat dinner with her. read to her. and finally walk her to sleep. I’m not working nights anymore so i have no excuse to just sit there on the couch and watch the fun. i should jump in more.

I’m also worried about moving away. I’m going to live somewhere else for 9 months. shes going to be affected by it… theres no getting around it. i hope she doesn’t forget me and i hope she doesnt loose her bond to me. i hope this whole thing isn’t a mistake.

She has learned these important things (from me):

When Daddy is yelling, saying “Calm down, Daddy” will calm him down.

When Daddy is tickling too much, saying “No means NO!” will stop him in his tracks.

If she doesn’t want to eat his dinner, flattering Daddy outrageously helps: “You’re the BEST Cook, Daddy!”

When she got shoved by another child at school, she held up her hand and said, “I don’t like that!” and ended it.

i asked her if she wanted her bunny doll. or her doggie doll. bunny? or doggie? ‘pick the one you want!’

she dove between them and grabbed on to me!

I have two little girls, 5 and 2 yr old. Although I can say that I am a good father, in all honesty, I don’t like the role model I am to my kids.

Will pray to God for Him to help me show the way to my daughters and prevent them for making the same mistakes I have made in my life.