do something that surprises, inspires, and terrifies me

pretty scary i’m not going to lie.
my spanish isn’t great and i’ve had a lot of communication problems. i’m a little scared of everything, i’m scared of people walking up to me and bombarding me with spanish, i’m scared of activites with my group and i’m scared of the silence between me and my host mom. But at the same time, its different and I’d rather be here than home.

leaving always terrifies me and inspires me

after a long while of horribleness and being treated really badly and him telling me he was an asshole i left

my mind confuses me
it reverts back to remember only the good times
but then when someone doesn’t call me back,
when someone swears at someone else,
when i hear a mysoginistic song on the radio
i think of him,

and what a huge letdown he really was.
and that i deserve much much better,
and to never let myself be abused in the same way
ever again.

i gave a guy my phone number and to my suprise,

he didn’t throw the number away

he called me back

and we hung out

and now we are dating =)

me and my bf would be apart.
and we are, which is suprising and terrifying.
yet i’m realizing he’s not the only one out there.
i’m starting to feel more excited about things.
i’m inspired to live better and happier.

getting a tattoo is suprising, inspiring and terrifying.

im also going to spain which is scary

swimming in the ocean and almost drowning by waves is suprising and terrifying

asking a guy 2 days after i met him to make my real bf jealous…. terrifying and inspiring.

just by being spontaneous this goal is amazing

yet i want something more suprising and terrifying and inspiring things to accomplish.

I want to do that with Advertising… And go further…

I like snowboarding,but i like it safe, on the piste, in a controlled fashion. I need to break out of my zone and go off piste, fight the fear, ride on my back foot and not care if i stack it and have to dig my way out , sweating and swearing, just be glad that i did it. Next time we have a suitable snowfall and off piste where i won;t have far to walk out. I am trying this.This will inspire me, the thought of it terrifies me. It will surprise everyone who knows me.

Mixed results: I was going to butt surf down the bowl of Hurricaine Ridge last Sunday. Tom and Susan deemed it likely I would break bones, and while I didn’t entirely agree, if they were right and I was wrong, they’d be the ones to carry my broken body a few miles over tough terrain back to the station, so I figured I’d respect their call. I was terrified to do it, and surprised that I was the one to cling to the prospect longest. I’m normally the one who chickens out on grounds of safety (or crutch of “safety”). It felt so, so good to stand at the edge, entirely plan to chicken out but keep my mouth shut just a moment longer, and then, when Tom said “on second thought…”, be the one who said No, I’m going anyhow! Inspired to courage. So, I don’t know if I should count this, since I didn’t actually do it. I went down the softer side instead, on a combination of my butt, my belly and a bit of barrel rolling. It was a tremendous amount of fun, yet only a tiny bit scary in only a few places where I gained substantial speed. I think I’ll count it as the right sort of activity and feelings, but leave it on in hopes of achieving something more unequivocal.

The world is a big place, there has to be something.

I told someone that I love him…someone who’d never said it to me….someone who may not feel the same way…it terrified me…but I did it and it felt good!

I’m starting to. I’m going on this whole spiritual journey. I’m, granted, also going off to college, but I’m going to open up and change everything and everything in my life is about to change. There’s all this electric energy and uncertainty and it’s beautiful and wild. I’m enjoying the moment.

The surprising, terrifying, and inspiring thing that I’m doing is discovering myself.