be me

Yesterday I spent some time at this site deleting old posts and goals. The process of creating those goals, writing about them and getting feedback was valuable. However, I decided that I’d delete the posts that I wouldn’t want my Facebook friends, my parents, or people who call me my the name on my passport to read. You see, Facebook allows you to share your 43things with your friends.

Even if I keep this world separate from that world, it helped to think about the posts that are most important for me to keep on display. It helped to think about the goals that are most important right now. It helps to narrow my focus.

Maybe the best thing about 43things is the opportunity share. And delete.

i want to grow up to be someone, to get out of my small town, and away from my nosy ass family. i want to be me not who everyone else wants me to be, i want to date whom i want, and chill with whom i want.

to be me to stay me to fight for me..i need balance

i want to feel like me again
stupid, silly, drunk, wreckless
alive and kicking
and happy with myself when I look in the mirror
and believe everyone when they say
and smile more often

After a gazillion years of straightening my hair and a couple of weeks of wearing hair extensions, I decided to go back to my roots.

To the salon I went for a haircut that left me with approximately 1/4 of an inch of hair. I was prepared to be traumatized afterward. But, I feel okay. I’m a bit concerned about how others (family, etc.) might react. Still, it was a good choice. Now I get to figure out how to manage my hair in its natural texture. My hair will also get the opportunity to recover from years of damage due to chemical relaxers and a decade of coloring my prematurely gray hair. (I started going gray at 24.) Oddly enough, this hair cut made me realize that I didn’t/don’t even have that much gray hair!

.I WANNA E ME AND ONLY ME. ;) ISZ WHAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT OFCOURSE.

woryed about may smokeing

Or at the very least, not tried to put myself into situations where I had to fake being somebody else.

Ah well…still marking this as done:)

so… being me… most wonderfull thing to ever happen!!!!
list of things that happened because i was me:
1) i got an amazing boyfriend
2) i became friends with almost all the kids in my class
3) i was told that i started a trend
4) i was told i was awesome
haha and like a million other things but seriously its like the coolest ever!!!!!! i luv it times a milion plus four times ten!!!