make true friends

just got back from a mini vacation in virginia beach where my friend of two years decides to freak out on and tell me he’s leaving me and he doesn’t care how i get back. still baffled, lost and hurt… and don’t know what happened. sat through an incredibly awkward and silent 5.5 hour drive back (when he decided not to leave because our friend talked him out of it). may never know..

Meet someone who actually cares about my well-being and isnt’ shallow with ulterior motives. Someone who I will still be friends with when I’m old!

Find those special people in the world that I truly connect with.

Went to a concert the other day. 9 hour bus ride, insane. Happy wiht the performance. My favorite singer and dancer. Too bad my camera was confiscated. WTHell….Anyhow on the bright side, I met many new people had a chance to dance on stage and made 10 new fake friends/admirers. I say that because it happens all to commonly, admirers ask for my contact information, take pictures, mimic my every move (dancing) ask way too many personal questions without revealing any details about themselves to me. I dont even live in that city so we can never meet again, and no one ever calls:-( How do you find real friends? I don’t understand this game.

Everywhere I go. Not just couples. Long term friends,coworkers etc. When I’m in a pair it’s a friend, and…their best friend and me (so I’m with a pair not in a pair)tagging along. I eat, travel and sleep alone. Ironically, I’m a very popular person and have many ‘verbal’ friendships but ‘always an aquaintance, never a pair’. (I know I’m doing something wrong)

everyone has friends they can talk to, or a friend they can turn to, if not a friend a family member, that they feel comfortable with and can open up to, I want to find people, true friends who like me for who I am and are loyal, who won’t stab you in the back, who’ll listen to what you have to say and tell you what they think, and look out for you and themselves, not just themselves