The other day I got MyFitnessPal for my phone along with Runkeeper. I’m mostly using them for more caloric awareness and portion sizes. I go on walks with my boyfriend, so I monitor how much I exert in doing them.
Staying more hydrated than I have been in awhile. My sleep cycle is pretty normal lately. Health is overall doing well. I’ve been taking my medications regularly for about a month. Skin’s clear- no acne or anything…
Things aren’t bad, overall. Yeah, I’m heavy right now. I have a big box of clothes that no longer fit me. There’s chairs in the back yard I’m too heavy to sit in. Every month is an impossible battle between cravings and sweet tooth longings for sweets and unhealthy foods…
I’m handling it.
I’ve got my bf on my side for support, and my parents are more understanding that it is imperative that I lose weight. I have friends who are also using apps and going to the gym, and I see them losing weight, and they’re fluffy like I am and they’re slimming down. I’m soooo jealous, but I use it to drive me to do what I can for my health and weight.
It’s not just about a number, it’s about my pancreas, my heart, my emotional and mental wellness, my joints, it’s about living. It’s about surviving.
I refuse to be a slave to fast food. I pull the IV of Pepsi out of my veins. I step out into the sun and although I sweat and melt, my determination to live surpasses any transitory need for sweets or comfort food.
Goodbye, McDonald’s, In N Out, Carl’s Jr., KFC, Jack in the Box, and the rest of you food monsters.
Goodbye, extra sugar.
I’m so ready to feel like a functioning human being for once in my life. 1 month ago