Get revenge by living well.

so recently i went on a cross country road trip and back. with the best friends ive got.
and it was amazing.
i was living well. and loving every minute of it.
and looking at it now – it felt so great because no one was trying to hold me back.
its like i got my life back.

I am so thankful that I don’t need to hold onto hate and regret and anger.

Life is so much brighter when you don’t let those negative emotions cloud up your sky—you know the sun is still shining even when it is pouring out?

then this has been going well.

Many people thought I would amount to nothing because of my gender, my race and my shape. You are too this or too that.

When I wrote this goal I didn’t realize that I am living well. I am still alive, I am healthy, I have a family, a job and can stand on my two feet. I can see, hear, touch and eat. I am able to learn and do new things.

It doesn’t matter what other think of me because I am doing great every day with what I was born with.

My revenge is done. I am happy with what I have.

revisit this goal…

Look out world because here I come!

I am a high school graduate. I put off college for personal and financial reasons and decided to get my life experience in the real world.

From a child I was told I would never amount to much. People thought I would be a drop out, with twelve kids, living on welfare. Funny thing is that I started proving people wrong at a young age.

I’ve been called fake because people think my personality is unreal. They can’t believe a person like me is respectful of others space, feelings, thoughts, and opinions. That I know how to say good morning, please and thank you. (My grandma taught me well)

People find it strange that I would give my seat to a child, a pregant person, the elderly or just to someone who looks like they had a crappy day. They call me fake because 80% of the time I as bright and cheeful as the sun is bright. The 20% I save for those who just have to open a can of whoop ass by getting on my bad side.

People in my adult life seem to feel that I will never be more than an executive assistant for the rest of my life.

This month I proved them all wrong. Even without a college degree I finding my own path. I am using what I was born with to lead the way.

I may never get back to college but I take the time to futher my education in other meaningful ways. I call it the college home school.

No one in the outside world except my husband knows that I have started a small business. My friends on 43things know because I know there are people who are going through or have gone through what I am experiencing.

So don’t let anyone tell you that you won’t amount to nothing. Try your best to do what is you every day and you will never fail.

Well, I started doing this one, at least in the material sense. I would say that the rest of my life is going well, bcause it is for the most part, but I’ve fallen into some sort of relationship with someone, and I don’t even know if I want to be in one. I don’t know a lot of things right now. I can say that I am at least happy.

Listening to the discussions regarding the events surrounding the arrest of a NASA astronaut I have come to realize that achievement can be the greatest stumbling point for anyone.

After something as monumental as going into space – something that only a handful of people have done – what’s next ? Listening to the news analysts and interviews with former astronauts, it seems reasonable that feeling like there isn’t much ‘next’ is quite possible.

I have come to realize that many of my own personal struggles come from achieving so many of the things that I sought to achieve at an early age. Once my situation changed, I was not sure what was next – where do I go ? It has taken a great deal of soul searching, and more heartache than I could have imagined, but now I see myself as a child looking into a box of Legos and seeing all the possibilities. The trick with Lego is figuring out what goes where.

Just because I often feel very much like a has been, doesn’t mean I cannot become a ‘gonna be.’

So on whom am I seeking revenge?

Me. More specifically that little voice inside me that whispers those doubts all too often.

Forgiveness and “living well” are better than revenge right?
Sadly, from my experience, no. I have many enemies, and I found that whilst living well, or forgiving them does piss them off, it still leaves you feeling miserable deep down, knowing that whatever they did to you, you just sat back and accepted. I had a friend who used to constantly talk about me behind my back, and even though I was smarter than him, better looking, stronger, and better with girls, he would constantly try to bring me down. I lived well, and it pissed him off, but he continued to try to mess my life up. Then one day, I simply walked over to him and slammed my fist into his nose. He fell to the ground, and the feeling of satisfaction, power and pride was immense. Since then, he has never talked badly about me, or anyone else. I think it made him a better person.

Now, I have guys that hit on my girlfriend, one by one, I track them down and get my revenge, and beleive me it makes me feel great, i mean really great.

Friends came to me asking for revenge on other guys that hit on their girlfriend, and soon we had a little group that we simply called The Black Fang Initiative.

We have since gotten revenge on every single guy that has ever wronged us, including abusive stepfathers, ex-boyfriends, guys that hit on our girlfriends, and general bullies.

One by one they have felt the power of the Fang. So we decided we needed to spread the vengeance. Black Fang recently went online, and you can find us at www.myspace.com/blackfanginitiative

You must have a Myspace account, and you must be male. The Fang is designed to help men get revenge on men. The reason for this, is simply that I have no experience in helping women get revenge, I also do not beleive in seeking revenge on women, and in my experience I have found that alot of women seek revenge on other women. Everything I have written, is written from a man’s perspective, it is intended to be read by men. Maybe in time, I will develop a female denomination of Black Fang.

From www.myspace.com/blackfanginitiative everything about Black Fang is explained, and there is a link to the Black Fang forums.
If you disagree with Black Fang in anyway, keep it to yourself, we do not want to hear it.
Draco

There are people who are in your life that suck the joy and happiness out of your life. It could be an action, a look,or a comment that is used to try and break you down.

I have had plenty of these type of people in my life. For some reason I have been drawn to them and them to me. The type of people who judge and over critize and make you wish you didn’t get of the bed in the morning.

As much as we try not to listen at times their words gets the best of us and we start believing the bull crap.

Over the past few years I have learned that sometimes you have to ignore the naysayers and lose the people who try to hold you down mentally or emotionally.

I’ve started cleaning my emotional house the past three months. I have a lot of Life Suckers who are were trying to drain me dry. It caused me to have self doubt, fear and guilt.

These feelings will have you constantly trying to keep up with the Jones.