have a true friend

My brother, sisters and Dad are my only true friends. Which is lovely, but sometimes you just want a friend who isn’t family who is always there for you. I’m one of those girls that you see and think is just fine but I would give anything for a good friend.

My “friends” don’t even know I exist. On Friday, we had a field trip and I sat in a three seater on the bus by myself until my “friend” Charlie asked to sit with me because there were no seats. The whole time, I was excluded from their conversation. It wasn’t until we were half way there that Charlie noticed. He said, “Oh I’m sorry, you seem so excluded.” Me, “Yeah, it’s ok, I don’t want to talk.” Any true friend would know there’s something wrong. One girl tried to take a picture of me and Charlie in the seat, so obviously she saw me. On the ride home, I sat on the outside, so it was even more awkward because they had their conversation around me. Then, my closest school “friends” started talking about how they should hang out that night-without me. I knew I wouldn’t be hanging out with them anyway, but they didn’t have to talk about it in front of me. I would rather not know. They always plan things with “everyone” but I’ not included in “everyone.” In my choir class, two of “my friends” sit next to me, and they don’t even say a word to me. I don’t have one single friend.

i have aload of mates but no true friends. there is a group of girls who THINK i am there best friend-but i’m not. they think that i dont know about what they say behind my back. And i have a friend that i cannot trust. she spills all my secrets and doesnt listen to me.
i now i want a good friend who i will do anything for.
but the thing is i cant seem to find one

I had many, many, many friends over the years but I have never felt that I had a “true” friend. Although many have come close…

Its funny how we think that everyone is a friend. When most of the time they are just associates who pass us by on the streets and spread our business from one person to another.

You meet this person, almost randomly.
They know someone you know. there’s a start.
You don’t see them for awhile, but you end up in their class.
Fate?
So you talk, and end up messing around instead of doing your class work. Text and picture messing eachother stupid things.
.
So you text them more and more. They ask you if you want to go somewere with a bunch of their friends. Does this mean I’m one of your friends?
You see a funny movie. Everyone loved it.
You sit at their lunch table, along with all the people you met the day before Since you met them, you finnaly had the nerve to move over there. Phew.
Everyone starts getting these cool new things called Myspaces.
You exchange myspace screen names… added.
You notice that you have a top friends list… _you make a move. They are your #1.
The next day, you read their profile. It’s very interesting.. you wish they had written more.
You look at the friends list…
YOU ARE THEIR #1.

Thats how I remember meeting Ethan, my best friend. I’d take any amount of bullets if only to save him. I trust him with my life.

I just feel like giving up and except that people are the way they are and that my standards are to high for a Best Friend. But my standards arent to high I just want a loyal friend who says what he/she means. Not a back stabber, theif (I mean just let me know youll never steal my stuff and I’ll let you know its wrong),poser, two faced type of person. I mean I just want a descent friend…....are my standards to high??................................................................................It’s just not fair because I will be their for you untill the very end, but their isnt any other person like that for me. It’s just sad because you get a this horrible lonely feel….all right well you tell me are my standards to high???

Its not just Disney Channel.(though that would be a big jump).... its anything 4 me. Im 15 now….I have always wanted people to hear my voice and notice it….singing voice that is lol. My Dad just doesnt want to try, so im going to have to wait till im 18. I feel like that is 2 late and no one will want me because i am to old with not enough expirience. I can also act and quite well. I want to finish school a year earlier just for this career. This means all A’s and nothing lower then a B from now on. I have decided that I am not going to eat any fattening food for 2 years so that when I am 18 i will at least have some chance. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!! SOS lol

P.S. Gatorade is allowed lol BUT.. not soda or greased up cheese and different pleasers like that.

P.SS. If you know any one that is interested in a Mixed girl who talks like shes white….Help ME OUT!! ...please?
contacts:
email: bunnylovesjade@aim.com
or
stitchesgn@aol.com

myspace: www.myspace.com/jecclesplace

Its not just Disney Channel.(though that would be a big jump).... its anything 4 me. Im 15 now….I have always wanted people to hear my voice and notice it….singing voice that is lol. My Dad just doesnt want to try, so im going to have to wait till im 18. I feel like that is 2 late and no one will want me because i am to old with not enough expirience. I can also act and quite well. I want to finish school a year earlier just for this career. This means all A’s and nothing lower then a B from now on. I have decided that I am not going to eat any fattening food for 2 years so that when I am 18 i will at least have some chance. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!! SOS lol

P.S. Gatorade is allowed lol BUT.. not soda or greased up cheese and different pleasers like that.

P.SS. If you know any one that is interested in a Mixed girl who talks like shes white….Help ME OUT!! ...please?
contacts:
email: bunnylovesjade@aim.com
or
stitchesgn@aol.com

myspace: www.myspace.com/jecclesplace

Its not just Disney Channel.(though that would be a big jump).... its anything 4 me. Im 15 now….I have always wanted people to hear my voice and notice it….singing voice that is lol. My Dad just doesnt want to try, so im going to have to wait till im 18. I feel like that is 2 late and no one will want me because i am to old with not enough expirience. I can also act and quite well. I want to finish school a year earlier just for this career. This means all A’s and nothing lower then a B from now on. I have decided that I am not going to eat any fattening food for 2 years so that when I am 18 i will at least have some chance. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!! SOS lol

P.S. Gatorade is allowed lol BUT.. not soda or greased up cheese and different pleasers like that.

P.SS. If you know any one that is interested in a Mixed girl who talks like shes white….Help ME OUT!! ...please?
contacts:
email: bunnylovesjade@aim.com
or
stitchesgn@aol.com

myspace: www.myspace.com/jecclesplace