Go to sleep before 11pm

although this last week I have been getting to sleep before midnight which is good.

It has been falling asleep in front of the tv though.

WhY? cos I can’t bear the laying awake before sleeping bit in my bed on my own.

Several times I’ve fallen asleep on the couch & ended up sleeping through till 7am or so…

Not getting good sleep. I’m exhausted. tired all the time, no energy.

Distance healer woman said I wasn’t getting into the deeper sleep cycles… due to addictions ( ie smoking) I’ve been smoking less than 5 a day the last few days, looking forward to being off them again very soon…

Now I have a decision to make, the dogs have been walked so I can now go to bed. However i don’t want to go to bed.

I have a choice go to bed anyway
go to bed & watch tv in bed till I fall asleep
don’t go to bed yet & fall asleep watching tv on the couch & drag myself up to bed when I wake up.

earlier this afternoon i fell asleep and slept for 3 hours, because I’d intended to do some work I then felt guilty which is why I’m still awake now- at 3am. It’s like i’m punishing myself because I slept earlier during the day & didn’t get my work done, when the reality is that I’m still feeling sick & weak & my body obviously needed the sleep.

It’s feeling guilty & ashamed which stops me relaxing and sleeping!

is proving a real challenge, when I’m not in a relationship & I have no one to snuggle up with in bed I find it hugely challenging to get myself into bed :(

I’ve slept on the sofa on more than one occassion the last few weeks

but last week I had a late night on weds, sat and sun!!
and today I feel like shit :( not a happy bunny today at all!!

including one night when I was asleep by 8.30pm!! :)

I’m committed to getting up before 7am EVERY day, and I’ve been doing so and doing yoga and running with the dogs on the beach int he morning at the start of each day so I’m delighted with myself

CELEBRATE YEEEHAAA!

last night cos I was exausted I went to bed @ 9.30pm which is a miricle for me, I was very proud of myself. However what proceeded after was not pleasant, I couldn’t let go, couldn’t wind down and relax, kept on running everything through my head the million and one things that I hadn’t done that I needed to or didn’t do right!!

I’m hoping this will be short term until i find a way to process this stuff, clear it and relax easy in my own bed.

This goal is one of my “don’t do”s for 2009. Don’t stay awake after 11pm. This is partly to keep a healthy routine, and partly to avoid conflicts between beer-induced-irrationality of my partner and AS-induced-rationality of mine.

appears to remain problematic for me.
Sometimes I do it fine, then I’ll stay up late one night and get out of the routine and find it extremely difficult to get back into it.
Maybe I’m trying to force myself out of my natural routine? Although I figure the routine I’m in isn’t the natural state just a bad habit I’ve developed… hay ho… I can’t mark this as done just yet…

Oct 5th – Sunday – asleep in bed@ 10pm, fell asleep on sofa @ 9pm
October 6th Monday – Got up @8.30am
Asleep by 11.40pm
October 7th Tuesday Got up @ 8.50am

with regards to being in bed at 11pm, but I haven’t stayed up really really late so I’m very pleased with myself :)