love and be loved

Juho and I have been together for over nine months now and he has become one of the most important and dearest people in my life. I wish there were proper words to describe all of this, us, but I can’t find any, not really. I just know that
he is it, this is it.
I love him so much and I intend to keep on loving him ‘til the end of my days, if the world will allow that. I won’t worry about our future, because it does seem so very bright and good.

I want to support and help him in every way that I can, whatever he chooses to do in his life. He knows this and I also know that he’ll do the same for me. He’s got my back. He’s ever so loving and caring, I just adore him.
Some time ago he told me that he feels that we’ve gone through & covered so many new things in this relationship, things that he hadn’t ever gone through in his previous relationships (not even in the one that lasted for more than 3 years) and this is one of the reasons why he feels so sure about us. That we are really right for each other. I feel this way, too. I could say that he completes me, but that’s sort of a cliché and it also sounds a bit funny. I’d say that people are from the beginning more or less complete already, other people just back us up, nourishing us in so many ways and creating a sort of a safety net of love, support and friendship.

We’ve experienced our first… bumps on the road, you might call it. Nothing huge, but big enough to see that we can truly solve things together and that we in fact communicate really well. We’ll keep on getting stronger and stronger the further we go. I have a lot of faith in us, I think we’ll be more than just fine and we’ll go a long way together. Hopefully all the way. :) I’m ready to take on both the good and the bad days with him (because I’m also sure that the good days will most definitely outweigh the bad ones – just look at our track record! nine months and not a single, real fight yet!).
I also look forward to finding out more and more about him, discovering how his wonderful mind truly works and how he sees the world and everything. Juho actually has this nice idea of people in relationships being each other’s “spare brains” and I like it. I think we already ~complement each other nicely and it will be a pleasure to watch us grow and become an even greater team.

I suppose I could finally reveal the “big news” (mentioned here): in late August, Juho asked me to move in with him. And I naturally agreed. This will probably happen in the beginning of 2010, because first we need to wait for Juho’s flatmate to move out of the apartment (he’s looking for a flat with his girlfriend, but they don’t seem to be too active in their search, rawr). My brains and my fingers have been itching with decoration ideas ever since. :D Can’t wait to pack my things and start putting together our home. I have a feeling that I will somehow flourish once we are living together, I feel that it will suit me (and us) really well.

It’s like he makes my whole body smile. And no one makes me laugh like he does. ♥

Well it is hard for me … always trying to love , but now that i think of it I never felt loved enough or haven’t realised that I am loved … or never wanted to be loved. Now I realise that i never tried to see who i am and how to emprove myself … to try and understand me … to love me. I could say this will be a new beggining and hopefuly i will manage to love me the way i am and stop trying to be someone else and also be loved , and love someone , cause i only had the idea of ” to love ” but didn’t receive that in return ( how to say from girls that i cared and still care ) .

I’m talking about the love a person has for another simply because they are a part of this crazy world we live in.

Love is extremely important. Everyone needs love, whether they want to admit it or not.

If you love someone, tell them. They don’t have to say it back. They don’t even have to love you too. People should know how important they are to you. We all need to know that we have touched the life another person.

Whether its family, old friends, new friends…. love and be loved.

ooooh love.

“Juho has accepted your invitation to “love and be loved”.”
Ain’t that just so darn cute! ♥ :D

Juho and I went through my list yesterday and it ended up taking us three hours to be finished with it. And after those three hours of talking I was feeling a lot better. ♥ It was a very good talk indeed.
We both feel that we have done incredibly well so far in our relationship, especially when it comes to communication. We can be open with each other, we can talk about things easily and we find solutions together. We can be ourselves, completely. I’m really proud of us, actually. And I’m especially happy and grateful about all of this, it makes me feel so good to know that I have someone who I can count on like this. Someone who listens to me, comforts me and helps me in so many ways. Someone great to share my life with.
We are on the same line, side by side. Hand in hand.
I think I actually wore him out with all the talking; you see, afterwards he just fell asleep while resting his head on my lap. It was so cute that I had to take a photo with my webcam. :3

I am loved. I need to accept it and enjoy it. But, does loving T let me live my truth ? Choose love over fear.

Felt like being a bit repetitive here again, because from time to time, a girl just has to praise her love:
I can hardly believe how lucky I am to have met my darling Juho, to have him in my life, to love him oh so much and to be loved back in an equal amount. He is truly unmatched, no one compares to him – I seriously know what real love is now. I can’t wait to see what adventures the future has in store for us, but in the meantime I’m more than satisfied in enjoying the present moment.
^{I wonder where all this love even fits inside my body! My heart has already been full of love for months, I guess this immense love must be spreading to other parts of my body as we speak. I hope I never run out of space for it!}

I have washed my hands of J. He joined match.com and dated 3 girls in a week, and slept with the one he liked least. I was so stunned when he told me this. It was his bday yesterday and I didn’t even wish him a happy day, I have just washed my hands of him, need a clean break. He was too confusing. I have a new friend at work and I told him I was having an unlucky week for love, and he said it wasn’t unlucky, it was just refining. I like that. And looking back, it was really a lucky week, because I have stopped pursuing someone who will never love me. My new friend said I have to understand that if I keep putting my key in the wrong lock, I’ll always be left outside.

sometimes i feel like i m never gonna find a true love.. that probably will remain my unquenchable desire…
i want a simple, uncomplicated love if it exist.. i wanna love someone with all my heart.. and get back the same..
P.S. I m a guy.. yeah, the straight one :)