Make love.

How I did it: i always thought making love was just a more slowed down version of having sex. this is the first guy i've ever went all the way with.
(messed around with 2 guys before who i thought were 'the one',but it just didn't feel perfect with them.there was something missing with them; they made me feel good physically,but something was missing in my heart and my mind).
 but i'm so glad i waited to do it with him, rather than to give it away to someone else. i'm completely and really in love, for once in my life. and i know it. alot of the time, our sex is rough and fast. but i don't think that makes it just 'sex'; the way we feel about each other is love. the sex is great; i wouldn't pick anyone over him, but sex is not a necessity. it makes things better but its not a must.
i'm the type who can't have sex unless i'm in love. which is why it's only been with this one guy.and that's how it shall remain.
i just feel so deeply connected with him when we make love; sure,it may be fast, not slow sex, but it just feels better when we pound into each other.
i'm just in love; it's as plain as day. i'm never going to let this feeling escape me. my boyfriend and i plan on getting married. he just needs to save up his money for an engagement ring. but i am forever his. and he is forever mine. i wouldnt make love or have sex unless i was in love with the person. i feel connected with him on so many different levels. it's the best!

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oh;the story...of the first time..if you care to hear...
we had been messing around for a little while prior to ever getting totally intimate. we already were in love with each other. and it felt so right. i think i've waited the longest out of my friends.it really make no difference, how long you wait; as long as its with the right person.as long as you have love. as long as you're in love.
i was 18 (1 month away from turning 19) when i had sex with him. he had sex with other girls before. but he's not the player type.he dosnt do 1 night stands.and neither do i. hes been with 3 of his girlfriends,besides me.
so one day,things were starting to get hot n heavy. he lives with his grandparents right now (he'll be 20 this month) and well,they dont let us shut the door to his room;its ridiculous!
so we went off to this house they own thats now abandoned but on their property;his aunt used to live there.lots of left behind junk in the house from when they moved.there was a beat up matress;its not the most romantic place ever,but it wasn't about that;it was about the love we felt for each other.
he didnt pressure me into it,not one bit. it was my choice completely. i have no regrets.

Oct 02, 2008, 08:08PM PDT | 2 comments | 13 cheers