I am sitting at the local library, working on some research for one of the community groups I volunteer with, while glancing at the stack of job postings I have gathered from the work search centre.
Things being what they are with my living situation I attempt to get out of the apartment and stay out all day if conceivably possible.
So as it happens I had just sent out some of my research and was about to spend what is left of the time before the meeting working on cover letters. And just then an email came in from a man I love like a brother. We have known each other since the 8th grade and have been through a lot of good times and some really lousy times together. We even made it through a stint of living together (it took some time for us to get really close after that).
Anyway, I had sent a letter to he and his wife a week or two ago, and was pretty open and honest about how things are going for me about now, with my mental health issues, work, family, living situation. Part of what I talked about was trying to force myself back into my old line of work which he very succinctly put as “violent babysitting”. Now I know that is not the most PC way to describe residential work with individuals with special needs, and those with “extreme behavioural issues” but the bottom line is that is often what it is. The last client I had tried to beat up myself or my vehicle every couple of hours on average. Maybe it is because I am getting older, maybe I just am burnt out on that kind of work, but I just don’t enjoy it anymore. Unfortunately, on paper it is what I am most qualified to do.
So, as I read his letter he spoke about that, and about how he thinks it is the worst idea for me to go back into that. (A sentiment which has been expressed by a number of others who also know me well.) He encouraged me to work more on my writing, something which I truly love doing, and no, I have no idea how to make any money with it… yet.
So, as I have just enough time to finish up this entry before getting to another meeting, my stack of job postings sits. Waiting to be organized, sorted and acted upon. Perhaps when I get to them later (or tomorrow, as some of them close tomorrow) the ones which are more minimum wage “get by” sort of jobs may attract more of my attention than those which are ‘in my field’.
I don’t often hear from my chosen brother, but when I do, it seems he has wonderful timing. 2 months ago