stop focusing on people who don't focus on me

Do I attract toxic people because I am toxic myself?

so… I am attracted by a few people that make me feel desperate to get their attentions all the time and if I don’t get it I feel destroyed
I need to have more things going on in my life so I don’t focus on them!!

with my ex. theres still a teeny tiny smudgen of attchment still inside me that i cant just elt her be, i get worried or anxious and i want her to communicate with me as much as she can, bu shes busy we have two spearate lives. itd be redundant to constantkly get involved.

This i have a problem with
i have to tell myself to just let go sometimes
even if i do for a while i always fall back into old routines

It’s hard not to think of two of my ex’es once in a while, one of them as a friend, the other as something more. But at least I don’t waste my time trying to contact them, which only leads to me getting hurt. It’s hard when people don’t seem to find interest in having contact with you, when you feel a good connection to them.

ex girlfriend grrr… its soo hard because i cant numb myself ot this pain i love her still and yet she doesnt give a shit about me… anyone with experience help!! shes my second love, but the strongest ive fallen for.. she went back to her ex and said she couldnt do that to her ex (referring to being with me) like if she lvoes me than it wouldnt matter anyone else, yet she still carriesher on.. she said theyre trying to work things out.. typical its one of those on again off again 2 year relationships n i happened to come along and whisk her world away as did she with me but it meant more to me than it did to her. she said she was free for a moment.

starting to let go of my completely self-absorbed “friend”. It feels so good, now i have time to care about people who actually give a damn about things/people besides themselves. :)

I’ve decided now to just let things go and move on and just take care of myself and do me. I do me, you do you. Kay?

i get so obsessive and attatched its so frustrating. and when i expect so much from [people… i feel like such an idiot caring about people