manage my PMDD.

It just seems to build up to two days of complete and total melt down every month. For ten days I just get more and more down on myself until those two days hit and everything just falls apart. The next two days after that I’m just exhausted. Today is day 13 and I’m beat and feel horrible for the things I’ve said and done to someone I love very much in the last two days.

I thought having figured out what was happening to me would be more than half the battle but unfortunately I can feel it coming on again. It is really not fair for Jason but this morning every little thing he did just set me off. I don’t understand how he can take all this shit from me. This morning whenever I would start getting bitchy he would give me a hug or a kiss on the cheek, which initially would rile me up more but actually helped to difuse the situation.

This is something that I was recently diagnosed with. It seriously changes everything about myself. I always thought I was just a raging bitch. It’s really weird to think how my life is going to be different from now on.