I never want to believe that an eating disorder is the only way for me again, because it is so not. It’s a mental disease, and the more I tell myself that the more I want to distance myself from it, because I never wanted to be a sick person.
I want to healthy and do my body good. I am going to keep on beating this and hopefully soon good times will come.
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mbk122 He wants to be free.
This is an addiction, one that i am going to face for the rest of my life. Sometimes i wonder whether i pushed it too far and it’s too late for me now, but i still have that tiny bit of hope, to be free and to recover, to not have to take pills everyday just to stay on my feet.
This would be a huge achievement. My ED has taken my life away, so beating this would mean everything to me
anna2fat love to live and live to love :o)
10 years of this shit, it sux but u have to keep going and its so hard. All my love to you be strong even when it gets tough :) xx
mbk122 He wants to be free.
well i’m back here after a year of ‘recovering’, but i don’t honestly know if there’s a way out of this disorder. I can’t see a future for myself without anorexia, i can’t imagine just sitting down to eat or even enjoying food again. I’ve got ‘good’ things going for me in life, good grades, intelligent and am always told i can be what ever i want to be, but what if that is nothing? I guess i’m just in a bout of depression but this time there is no light at the end of the tunnel (fuck that sounds cheesy).
going to put this az completed since theres no point thinkin’ of failure in this context!!
I cant seem to stop binging and purging, now I feel bad when I eat anything. I wish I could just stop thinking about food and being so hungry all the time. I hate myself and how this thing is taking over my life. I am lost and don’t know how to get a real life.
eaten anything in 2 days ..that is outside the scope of this diet
so far, so good..
My ed has become just a part of life. A scary part.
I want to over come it but Im not ready.
I wont die from this, I wont allow it.
But Im not ready to let go.
Some day.
...soon hopefully
LoveKelly is capsized.
I’m afraid that I’ll never be good enough.
I can’t go out with friends without worrying about where we’ll go, if we’ll eat, what I’ll do about it.
I’M PARANOID.
I’m afraid that overcoming anorexia will cause me to gain tons of weight back.
I don’t want that.
I want my tiny frame and size 0 jeans… forever.
But I want to be able to EAT.
Is that too much to ask for?
It really hurts to see my 99 lb. classmate be able to eat whatever she wants because of a certain medication she’s on, when I can’t even get to 105 lbs. by STARVING myself.
WHEN WILL IT END??
Love, Kelly.
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