Confront my mother.

You were however , emotionally distant and as a child it’s not that we didn’t notice , We didn’t know how to deal with it. Of coarse we noticed our parents are not spending much time together, They don’t hold hands. There always arguing, Mostly about money. They don’t kiss. They dissagree on giving the children permission to do things. They just didn’t get along.
really remarquable woman until youre last child. (No offence Sis’ :-you were really not an angel; still youre o.k. kid and I love you so much.)Maybee you suffered from post partum depression. Maybee you tryed to hard to be a good mom and I’m only starting to realise that now.

I will give you the time and space away from me that you need.  During that time, I will regain my natural state and strenght. I will try to become and be all that I can acheive in this life. I believe we should not take life for granted. It's Easy come,Easy go. We shouldn't take anything for granted really. Well, if you feel better this way, and I wonder about it, ( I don't know, I kinda do feel good for now, typing is helpful too). I need time to find myself, I'm only half way there. I feel you have confused me alot by making me believe things that aren't necessarily true to me. I understand you were only trying to be a good mom. I'm also trying to be a good daughter.

I wish one day it will make us smile to see hear of feal each other.

I have a heavy weight of emotion on my chest when I think about you. It makes me so tired, that I find normal everyday tasks a Challenge. It’s been over a month you refuse to communicate with me. The words ; “You are not my daughter”, give me a sense of releif and I’m wondering if this is healthy. I respect your wishes and finally we found a temporary solution to our really bad Mother/Daughter relationship.
I just wish you could learn to be a little more open minded and realistic about life. I wish you were so miserable and I feel bad for the day you realise how quickly you are aging due to your negative thaught pattern.
I wish you would learn to listen and not iterupt. ( I can still work on that too, lol).
I wish you would accept me for who I am and not who you want me to be. And that you would try to understand my nature and encourage me to pursue my faith and destiny.
I understand you can’t teach what you havn’t yet learned. Maybee if you let yourself learn from others instead of insisting you know everything. Let others take control sometimes, it’s really not that bad. You can experience a whole lot of new things.
I pray for you mom so that you don’t suffer. I pray so that you find happyness because misery + lonelyness ( isolation) = shorter lifespan and health. I thank god for your deticated husband, I don’t understand how he deals with it. I feel real sorry for him at times and believe he is actually wiser than I think and knows who you really are a heck of a lot more than I do. I feel like he grandly dislikes me and I don’t remember ever having a major one on one with him. I feel that you ( maybee threw all the ager)made him dislike me. O.k… I’m not entirely innocent. I had a real hard time controlling my mouth and said some very crazy mean things to you. I’m shure you havn’t forgotten. Just, take a minute, and wonder, what got me to the point of such anger?
You know what I can’t even remember, Do you?...It’s not important. I’m a growing lady now , becoming a woman.
The change process is really hard and takes dedication , commitment and persistence.
Mostly , I think the praying helps. I know God loves me and he loves you and would probably prefer to see us getting along. So…, How shall we overcome our differences Mommy dearest, or shall we just let it go and finally have peace? Is this silence really peacfull?
That’s all you ever really wanted if I remember , Is , SILENCE! QUIET! Man you shure made alot of noise to have sum quiet. I wish you would get youre ears check , I truly belive youre hearing is ten times more sensitive than the average person. Thanks to you I learned how to breath Silently and proved to play real good at hide and go seak. Hidding was actually one of my favorite hobbies at home. Did you know that about me mommy? Hmmm Have I ever really called you mommy, maybee a couple times, Do you remember any?
What was youre favorite mother/daughter moment?....
Did you find one? Please share :k
I like when I had fever or was sick in bed , You would stroke my hair back and it felt so gooooooood. I wish you did that evry night!
I like the notes you left us when we came home from school, and the luches on the coulords trays, Sweet!;)
You were not the worse mother, No. You kept the house clean , and fed us, kept us warm and away from harm, the most you could have I guess.

I cant remember my mother ever admiting to making a mistake. She doesn t know how and when to say sorry. I dont feel like we ever really had a conversation. One that isnt emotionally draining that is. We never really got along. My sister describes another woman as our mother…I think she had a favorite. I dont think that she has a positive and healthy way of dealing with reality. It took me a long time to find some ways. I can always be more positive.

In our relationship, it’s “mother is always right.”