live honestly and see how people around me respond

I am free to just be… ME… and honest and authentic. I am going to move this to my done list but continue it for the rest of my life.

Living honestly means speaking my truth. Today I spoke it, and they reacted like mature adults.

This is me. I am complex and sometimes contradictory. I am emerging into my full being, and some people will be unhappy with that.

Too bad.

Some thoughts about living honestly: It is with our own selves that this effort counts. If I am not comfortable and happy with me, I cannot even begin to live honestly outwardly. In the meditations I am doing, I am extending lovingkindness to myself rather than disciplining myself harshly. When my mind wanders, I name the places it goes and very lovingly allow my mind to dwell there for a bit before bringing it back to my breathing or the words I am using for focus. This means recognizing where my mind goes when I am weak and tired. This means recognizing when I use fantasy as an escape from simply being me. How often to I pretend to be someone I am not in the outer world? How often to I “craft” a persona to match or compliment the person I am with rather than being the simple authentic self with all of her flaws and bumps and warts that I am?

I am only emasculating as long as he allows me to emasculate him.

On the other hand, I can extend loving-kindness to him in an energetic and compassionate way.

to move into a whole new life!

after the phone call from my mom on my way to work. Her expectations are completely not in line with what is truly going to happen. So, I showed up at work in my bad mood. I didn’t visit it on anyone else, but I was totally honest and said, “I am in a bad mood and this is why.” Wow! The universe comes to meet you when you are honest! I got support and jokes and cheer and sympathy… I got compassion. Rather than keeping it all hidden and putting a “happy face on”, I was honest and found what I needed. Before 15 minutes had passed, my heart was cheered and my outlook had brightened and I was able to put my bad mood aside.

And so today, I will live honestly, straight up, doing what I must do to live my life with authenticity.

Being honest and authentic and open seems to be attractive to most people. I find that I am attracted to this type of person who is living straight up without a bunch of games.

The most confusing thing is that it most threatening to the people I am closest to, who have witnessed the evolution toward authenticity.

Will they become accustomed to it?

So… the question of the day is, “How judgemental am I, anyway?”