be motivated

Not struggling with this at the moment so going to mark it done. I guess, when you do things you love to do, you don’t really need motivation as such as you want to do it anyway…
However, there are areas of my life where I could do with a bit more motivation, like studying…. or when I have a whole day free, I could be more organised and get things done… but that’s not a big issue and is probably more about time management than motivation.

I spent most of today in bed because it was cold and everything felt boooring and complicated and a mess- lying in bed far more simplistic ;)

So jobseeking- today I wrote down a few jobs to apply for and their deadlines, plus some freelance, temporary and volunteer ideas.

At the same time I want to work on my writing and script etc and work on some writing competitions, but I tend to muddle the two up and then put not enough time into either endeavour.

So I need a schedule and only give my self a certain amount of time to fret etc on ONE thing rather than several.
Also need to make my space more conducive to work. It’s a bit of a state.

Have separate areas for : scriptwriting stuff, job seeking stuff, Danish, French, dvds, arty stuff, film books and things that need to be dealt with.

Don’t just ‘float’ ideas around, be continuously considering stuff- chose a course of action and ACT.

seem to help with motivation. All day I struggled to get started on an application letter for a job that would be pretty cool. It’s so hard because this is about the millionth time I think ‘omg, that job is perfect for me, I’m perfect for the job! I’m so going to get it’ and then I don’t even get an interview… I found it impossible to get excited about the job and to find the motivation to write a good covering letter. I need to write a really strong and convincing letter because I don’t have all the experience needed for the job and I’m sure there’ll be a million applicants, so I need to stand out.
By 4pm I’d written two words :). I just could not bring myself to write the same BS that I’ve written a million times already. I decided to take a break and do my affirmations. Maybe it’s because I haven’t done any affirmations in a while that the affect was so instant and strong. I felt a burst of motivation immediately and wrote a really good letter in twenty minutes! Amazing. I’d say the letter’s even quite genuine. It’s only a draft, but it shouldn’t take me long to finish it off tomorrow. I’ve also come up with some good ideas for my CV, which I’ll re-write for this job tomorrow. I should definitely get an interview.

I used to have a goal called ‘be more disciplined’, which is something i still want to be, but the word ‘discipline’ feels quite negative and makes the goal feel really difficult. Some time ago I read somewhere _{again, i can’t remember where…} that motivation leads to discipline. If you are motivated to keep on doing something, then it’s easy to be disciplined. I think that’s a more positive way of looking at it and makes the goal feel much more exciting and achievable.

There’s no clear incentive or result, and no real terrible consequences if I fail. So really need to work on my motivation.
I think behind that lies issues with self-confidence, self-believe and perfectionism/defeatism.
So I’m starting off working on the self-confidence, I found something on mindtools.com which I’m gonna work through and see how it goes.
http://www.mindtools.com/selfconf.html

Why is it so hard? Everyday I have tons of things I would like to do, but it doesn’t seem to be enough. I just don’t feel like doing them… The strangest part is that the things I dislike I do them everyday.

But ok. If it’s so hard to be motivated, I think I’ll just have to try harder, eh?

I don’t understand why this is so difficult for me to tackle. Every morning I wake up and say to myself…get the hell out of bed early and do something productive. It’s been a slow start…I just don’t feel motivated early in the day.I’m sincerely trying.

I just cant seem to get started. Get off my butt and stop feeling sorry for myself….come on, shake it off and get things rolling.

Motivation is the reason for someone doing something. I have many reasons to revise for my exams and get good marks. I have many reasons to tidy my room. But I am not MOTIVATED which is what makes you do something. That’s the problem though, I don’t have any so I don’t do anything except laze around. Which isn’t helping. My plan is to get myself motivated, get more things done and then overall be happier with myself and my life.

where o where is it gone????

:(