achieve a geshtault internal state

funny, these little blurbs in the side bar:

“I am, however, Tibetan before I am Dalai Lama, and I am human before I am Tibetan.”
- Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama

“As he thinketh in his heart, so is he.”
- Proverbs 23:7, Bible

wisdom in easily digestible quotations. No need to sit at the feet of the teacher, no need to go to the mountain. The truth it seems is everywhere.

he had not expected ‘letting it be’ to be so challenging….

We must get used to making unreasonable demands on ourselves. Much as I try to chill I still find my self engaged in recrimination, still worrying over a few stray pounds, fretting over things allready done.

On occasion I am more Hamlet than Laertes. yuck.

all of his life he has tried to be a good man and do the right and honourable thing

and as I’m sure everyone does – I have failed, spectacularily at times. I have been so ashamed of my lapses that I have buried them internally and been unable to face my actions. I have gone to great lengths to make up for my mistakes but have allways believed that I am dammaged & can endure no more dishonour.

Recently I have begun to wonder if I havn’t gone too far – if i am not more elastic than I thought. If I can’t have been both good and bad and still been – good. If my notion of honour hasn’t been too rooted in vanity.