start up more conversations with acquaintances

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i’m really shy when it comes to meeting new people. i always feel like others are content with their group of friends and aren’t interested in meeting new people, which may be true, but maybe not. i just have trouble creating friendships out of acquaintances, and it’s really starting to limit my social schedule.

i’ve been told a few times that i’m very intimidating, and seem unapproachable. this is probably because i don’t talk much to people around me or in my classes. i think if i make a little effort to make small talk with new people, they’ll feel more comfortable with me and i’ll seem friendlier and more approachable.

...which could lead to new friendships? who knows.

In terms of meeting people.
I pretty much stick to my own tight schedule, hate going out or meeting up with people coz it really throws me off balance (and my schedule). I wish I didn’t feel like that. It’s like people have too much effect or influence on me. I don’t mean as in they brainwash me, but it’s like I’m so used to doing my own thing and going to appointments that I’m always worrying that I’m forgetting about doing a “job” if I’m hanging around with people.
If I start doing that – I get very side-tracked. WAH

He was very friendly – which was nice to see in a cashier. I normally get miserable women or moody men.
Had a great chat – all in the little time it took to get my groceries over the scanner!!
It’s funny how you can just feel comfortable with some people, and not with others.

I have finished my last exam for the term and I am all happiness and airiness.
I have had the new-found confidence to strike up conversations with three people I have said a mere hello to over the last few years. Today my enthusiasm was having none of it – and I spoke with, smiled and found out a lot of interesting stuff from these people.
It’s like I’ve crawled out of a shell that I’ve been hiding under for the last year or so.
It’s really hard when you have low-self confidence to recognise that the rest of the world doesn’t hate you (unless you’re someone like Adolf Hitler or Jade Goodie of course). I’ve convinced myself I’m not worth someone’s attention. But it’s days like today when I realise I am fine, it’s the times when I stop self-obsessing and get out there and do new things. It proves to me I can do it and not have people laugh at me or reject me.
It might sound odd to socialisers, but for me – having a conversation with someone can light up my life for the day – if not longer.
I hope the other people involved today also learned, or gained something from it.
I think that’s what I enjoyed the most. Showing interest in others instead of focussing on myself. Nice change. I think I’m getting back to how I used to be.