appreciate the beauty in the world

Just under five years ago I stopped drinking alcohol, stopped smoking pot and changed my life. I had help. I had no idea of what beauty was. No concept. It is impossible to hate yourself and see beauty in anything. (IMO anyhow :) )

I had a day today (bad head day), where I simply forgot to appreciate the beauty in anything. I had stocktake at work, and I approached the day with a suitable amount of distaste. This spread from me to my colleagues, my customers and buried itself deep in my soul.

It’s all over. The stocktake is finished. I am home. And yet I still feel so tense and sad. Why? There is nothing wrong with my life right in this minute. I am fed. I am clothed. I am employed. I am safe.

Where is my gratitude? I suspect that the beauty I seek is in the same place as my gratitude… Be Graceful

Beauty and Grace can be found in anything …........

Depending on what head I put on in the morning, some days i can see everything in this world in the most amazing light.. Everything seems beautiful, everything has a place. On those rare days I feel particularly connected to the world. I feel my own beauty. I feel like I am a part of the world. I feel like I have my own place within it.
I want to be able to appreciate this beauty every day.

I’ve been doing quite a bit of this, like when I laid down by the sprinklers and the cops took me down to the station. Good times.