To me, cutting is addicting. Just like smoking, and drinking- you can’t stop. I think about it a lot and even though I want to stop I also don’t want too cause I love how it feels and it just lets me go. I do it every night now. There are cuts on my leg, and even though I said I wasn’t going to cut my wrists or arms I have, and there are cuts running up and down them. I don’t want the scars, and I don’t want to have to hide them and make up excuses. But how can I stop when its all I think about? When everything around me is hurting me so much and a few slices of the skin is like heaven to me? I need to stop before it becomes worse.
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How I did it: It was mainly will power. I knew that I was getting close to killing myself with my cutting and I knew that I was getting more and more depressed. I would draw a butterfly on my arm when I wanted to cut and if I cut I would have to erase it. I also replaced cutting with other activities like playing guitar or working out. Read how I did it…
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ADejectedButterfly is a hypnostic cloud
i was doing so well…hadn’t done it for like a month…
then the other night my friend tried to kill herself, and i couldn’t help myself..i was so upset ;[
ADejectedButterfly is a hypnostic cloud
two weeks since i last cut ;]
it’s hard…i think about it and want to do it
but i’m sick of the cuts and scares, they just have to go >:l
sydick cutting
i started cutting when i was in 7th grade. and now im a freshman. i had to try and stop bc the nurse from my school called my house bc she saw scars on my arms and legs. i have stopped cutting for about 2months until last week. it really lowers my self confidence when i think of how i gave in. i dont even really know why i do it really. probably bc when i have so much emotional pain and i dont feel like crying anymore i bring in physical pain to level everything out. please help me stop<3
ADejectedButterfly is a hypnostic cloud
Well, I slipped up a couple of weeks back, but since I’ve been able to restrain myself..
Summer is coming and I have huge scars on my arm, I know it’s my fault.. does anyone have anything that they’ve found really works to get rid of scares??
It would be appreciated xx
ADejectedButterfly is a hypnostic cloud
idk why, but it just makes me feel better. Knowing I’m getting what I deserve in a way.
I don’t think I’ll be able to stop just yet, but I think I could do it less often, and not as deep? maybe. but idk, i could just be kidding myself.
In a good mood atm, so I’ll probably make promises to myself which i can’t keep :l
KayteeKayos ahhh!! I need a tan... I need to go to Sprague..I need a Monster.
I’ve been cutting since the 6th grade. Sometimes I can go a long time.. But sometimes I slip. I only have ibe cut right now.. I did that with a pencil sharpener. I’ve found that if you’re upset enough, you can cut with anything. I’ve used a pencil, a ruler, a picture frame, razors, my teeth, my nails, siscors, a knife, anything I could to get that blood to flow. I can’t figure out hy the feeling of physical pain makes me feel so much better emotionally. It just does. I really do it because I feel like such a disappointment to every one around me. I don’t have perfect grades or perfect friends so I get really upset when my parents yell at me. I always turn to the blade for support.. It always manages to help… Always…
xxxemostarrxxx is Wishing Greg would love me
its a horrible thing i have started and i want to quit <33
i have do this for 5 years and my arms look realy bad i need to stop cutting now because if i don’t it will turn into some thing much biger and that is not what so with the right help i will be able to stop cutting
