record a weekly 'state of my mind address'.

I have begun slide back into the insomnia issues I once blamed on night shift work.
Hmm, it happens in January and February for the last 4 years. Perhaps it is SADD? I also find myself weepy with labile moods. I awaken with a pounding heart, startle awake often. Perhaps I will look further into this.

I don’t know what I ever did to deserve the children I have.
They are amazing creatures who have never given me the nightmarish ordeals I hear others relate. They are good, stay out of trouble, care for others, as a whole are obedient to me.
I think they are good “in spite of me”. Mom often told me her children turned out well in spite of her or reguardless of her mistakes.
I had told my step-dad how amazing I thought my children were and said, “I must have done something right at one point, to be blessed with them”. In our teasing way he replied “Maybe that is God’s way of showing how you SHOULD be.”
I think they are both right.