find my own edward cullen

sigh
I wonder if it would happen, to find someone as loving, and caring as Edward.
He’s such a gentlemen! it’s so hard to find these days…

It’s typical of me, I call for something more deeper, like the love Edward had for Bella and then I go for the first guy I can. He is a bad boy, mysterious and something for the eyes but other than that, there is nothing. Sure we’ve kissed once or twice, but he hasn’t made any effort to spend time alone or to do something special. I need help, how do I stop falling for these same guys, and how do I tell them that they are not my Edward.

I hate it when boys dump you after a couple of days or ask you out for a joke. They are so immature!
Oh, Edward!

I have always had short term relationships, nothing to write home about. But Twilight made me realise, that us girls are selling ourselves short, we are the ones who need to set the standard so that every guy knows who come across that we will only settle for the a real man “our Edward”. I am done being used and abused by guys who are not worth a second of my time, this time I want to find my soulmate.

because I was scared that I would never find somebody that overwhelmed and intimidated me in a way because they are so incredibly handsome..I also cried because deep down I dont think anybody will love me as much as I love them. Its not the actual Ed Cullen I dream of. I dream of having what he represents, alas it is a dream. If I find my version I would give everything.

sigh

i cry every time i think about this. i know edward cullen doesnt exist but i need to find MY edward cullen. the guy who is sexy but he doesnt know it. money shouldnt matter. i dont want him to be afraid 2 be with me around his parents friends or other people. i want him 2 say i love you more than you know every day not in txt not on the phone but in person. someone i dont have to pretend for and i can trust. im crying writing this and it seems lame . i have a hole in my heart and i cant fill it untill i find my edward cullen :(

i dont really understand why but it makes me so sad when i think of edward, almost like i know he will never exsits expect in fictionly stories. i wish i would already find him and be eternaly happy just holding his hand :/

i think ive found this.
im gunna mark it complete..but im really nervous that the whole thing will fall apart and then i’ll be like “well he def. wasnt my edward cullen” but we shall see i guess.

this is kinda sad i.i

i just want to find my own caring, protective, lovable, nice edward cullen. I hope some day he will come along. and those of you who about to just give up….. dont because i know, i just know, he will come along. dont give up!