be able to handle myself without medication

I thought it was worth it. I was so worried before I came off all my meds, and my doctor had warned me it might be dangerous to do it so suddenly and all of them at once, but I was adamant. I’ve been off meds for about 3 months now and I feel absolutely no different. And although I don’t feel any better or worse, not being on that amount of medication has got to be better than being on it if it wasn’t doing anything, right?

And yet when I achieved it, i found it was not as I had hoped. The struggle for sanity was a constant one, and often i felt worse than I ever have. The weirdest thing was, people are happy to hear you’re doing without the medication, so happy that it makes you stay off it. I managed for a year before I realised they key wasnt no meds, it was finding a medication that let me be myself, and balanced my head at the same time.

Right, well, I’ve stopped taking my meds! I’m not 100% happy and chirpy, and I debated whether or not I’ve actually met this goal, but I realised there’s no way I’m taking ant-depressants again, so I guess this is as close as it gets.

God is good.

I think I can do this. In fact, I know I can do this. I’ve already started weaning myself off my meds because I know I’m fine now, but I’m not going to count this as done until I’m safely finished taking my happy pills. Wish me luck!

That’s a Verve song and it’s very true. I was on 3 different medications (for bipolar disorder) at the beginning of last year and it left me very lethargic, overweight and unhappy. I’ve changed psychiatrists a few times so I could get my medications reduced and I’ve been better the more they’ve reduced it. I’ve actually done away with medication completely now, and I’m feeling fine. I still have some Abilify just in case I do need it.

I’m on two medications right now. I’m dissatisfied by how they make me. I am pushed back to age 8 more times and I have less control. I’m mild mannered and very hesitant, but know exactly how to control people. I’m not showing any affects to other people and I tend to sleep better, even if my plans are so foul. I prefer boys (don’t talk to girls at all) and I keep to myself. These are all things I broke through from years of training myself out of them. I’m stuck again… hopefully when I break through this it will be the last time and I won’t need meds as my waterwings….