Keep a food journal for a month

Ate: 3 bowls of mac n cheese

Drank: bottles of water- 2

Weight: 187.5 (lowest yet I think)

Just realized I HAVE kept this for a month now, though I missed a couple days. 11 months ago

Ate: vegetable chips, leftover hamburger helpers (ew), steamed asparagus, grapes

Drank: bottles of water- 5

Weight: Did not weigh when I first woke up 11 months ago

Ate: hamburger helper, mushroom, onions, peppers and mozz. sandwich., vegetable chips, fried pickles with ranch and hot sauce.

Drank: water. 6 bottles

Weight: 189 11 months ago

Ate: piece of pizza, bowl of Life cereal with milk, bag of popcorn

Drank: water

Weight: 11 months ago

Ate: 2 California rolls with soy sauce and wasabi, red grapes, bagel with cream cheese

Drank: glass of orange juice, bottles of water- 3

Weight: 188 11 months ago

Ate: roasted one sweet potato, one white potato, half an onion, roasted, turned into two meals. Life cereal, dry.

Drank: bottles of water- 3, glass of orange juice

Weight: 11 months ago

Ate: Campell’s heart veggie soup, 2slices whole wheat toast, bagel with cream cheese, serving of asparagus

Drank: water- 5 bottles of 20oz., total 100ou.

Weight: 188

Going to start keeping track of how much water I drink every day. 11 months ago

Ate: grapes, Life cereal, Butterfinger snackerz snack pack, half a bagel with cream cheese, Campell’s soup with whole wheat toast, popcorn

Drank: water

Weight: 11 months ago

Ate: mac-n-cheese with sweet potato bites, watermelon, Life cereal with milk, a third of a bag of popcorn.

Drank: water

Weight: did not weigh when I woke up 11 months ago

Ate: waffle, two sausage patties. Lots of grapes. Whole wheat bagel with light cream cheese. Campell’s hearty veggie soup. Two slices of whole wheat toast. Dry cereal. Two slices of watermelon

Drank: water, glass of milk

Weight: 188 11 months ago

Ate: wheat bagel with light cream cheese, watermelon, Campell’s hearty veggie soup, one serving ice cream (mooooo)

Drank: water

Weight: 188.5 :) 11 months ago

Ate: piece of pizza, roasted sweet potatoes& onions, asparagus. One bowl of ice cream, refried beans and salsa

Drank: water

Weight: 11 months ago

Ate: patty melt (sirloin patty), small bowl of Life cereal with milk, baked potato with light ranch, grapes, slice of key lime pie

Drank: glass of tea, water

Weight: (190.5 at “bedtime”) 11 months ago

Ate: small bowl of Life cereal with skim milk, grapes, can of campells’ soup, one piece whole wheat toast

Drank: water

Weight: 12 months ago

Ate: soup and too many chips, large apple, small serving fried pickles, small piece of pizza

Drank: water

Weight: 12 months ago

Ate: whole wheat bagel with light cream cheese, campell’s chunky sirlon burger soup, baked chips

Drank: water, glass of tea

Weight: did not weigh when I woke up 12 months ago

Ate: whole wheat bagel with cream cheese, small serving boneless hot chicken, small serving fried pickles

Drank: water

Weight: 189.5 (guessing the pounds up last nite was water weight?) 12 months ago

Ate: two pieces of pizza, eight mozz. sticks all together

Drank: water, glass of milk, glass of OJ

Weight: 191.5 (a pound and a half UP, ughhh, junk food!) 12 months ago

Ate: whole wheat bagel, light cream cheese, pepperoni, pickles (not all at once LOL, small snacks thruout the day). AND butterfinger ice cream (grrr hubby)

Drank: water

Weight: didnt weigh

MUST weigh in the morning, pigged out today and yesterday :( 12 months ago

Ate: one pack of Butterfingerz Snackerz- 190 calories. Refried beans with salsa. 7 mozzerella sticks. 1/3 cup of butterfinger ice cream.

Drank: water, one diet pepsi

Weight: didnt weigh

Pigged out today (thanx hubby) 12 months ago

Ate: whole wheat bagel with low-fat cream cheese, pepperoni slices, 2 slices of wheat toast

Drank: water, glass of orange juice

Weight: did not weigh 12 months ago

Ate: Ramen noodles with hot sauce (lol), 4 servings of early peas, little butter, salt

Drank: sweet tea

Weight: 190.5 12 months ago

Ate: Steamed hashbrowns with cheese, onions, mushrooms

Drank: glass of tea, cup of milk

Weight: Did not weigh this morning 12 months ago

Ate: refried beans, salsa, light sour cream… partial bowl, piece of mozz. cheese, STEAM cooked hashbrowns w/mushrooms, onions and 3 sausage patties.

Drank: three glasses of tea

Weight: 190 12 months ago

Ate: nothing

Drank: two glasses of tea

Weight: didnt weigh 12 months ago

Ate: refried beans, mozz. chesse, salsa, light sour cream (one bowl)

Drank: 2 cans of diet pepsi’s

Weight: didn’t weigh when I woke up 12 months ago

All my days run together since Ember died. Just a mass of trying to pass time and sleep.

But I really need to do this, get a better handle on my eating habits. Normally I keep an eating journal in my regular one, but I’ve really stopped writing a journal the last couple months. Expressing myself no longer helps dull the pain, there’s nothing left inside me. I’m just empty.

I spend most of my time online these days, constantly searching for something to hold my attention for a least a moment or two. So maybe keeping records here on 43things will help. Really…. unmotivated. I just don’t see a point in trying to do anything without my girl. 12 months ago