stop being lazy

I’m happy with my progress, we’ll see how it keeps up.

school is out for the summer. many of my friends are quite pleased with this event. i on the other hand find life sorely lacking without it. the environment i lived in at school was efficiently productive. now i am back home, living the easy life, with nine to five-ers who work because they have to. when my father comes home; straight to the tv. not my idea of a productive atmosphere.

never do i want to live a life of suburban mediocrity; a life of worthless middle of the road slavery to the rat race.

i have to get out of here and never come back.

I seem to have flipped over into another realm. I’m working full time and I have a 15 hour a week internship. So I’m putting in about 55 a week at different jobs

i start work at 9:00am i leave home at 8:30am to make it on time, i want ot be able to wake up at 6:30am to work out, eat breakfast, make my bed, take a shower and look half way descent at work. but i cant do it!!!!i set my alarm at 6:00am every single day, it goes off i wake up think its too early and say to my self ill do it tomorrow and go back to sleep, my bed get so confy right at the same time my alarm goes off, and i hate it cuz i end up waking up at 8:20am everysingle day, i put on what ever is around, brush my teeh put my hair on a bun and out the door. i need help any advide out there???? (ps. this is what happened one time the very forst time i actually got out of my bed at 6:30am)

a friend of mine died the other night, only 18 years of age. it was sudden and unanticipated. this makes me consider how little time we actually have. what am i doing with my time? i have yet to accomplish the things i’ve dreamed of.

there is no better time to start than now.

i found out today that i achieved an a in my history of graphic design course. i felt surprised because i never used to get good grades. i graduated high school with a 1.8 gpa. this semester i will be exceeding a 3.0 for the first time in.. well, ever. the best part is the feeling of accomplishment that one gets when their hard work pays off. it is a new feeling, but i must say i do enjoy it.

for the past two weeks i have been waking at 4 am and working on finals consistently. now that the last week of school is upon us, i feel largely unburdened whilst my peers are scrabbling around to get things done last moment. it is the most satisfying feeling i can remember, one that i have felt but few times before. what else can i achieve?

If there’s one thing worth doing, it’s getting off my butt and actually doing what i set out to do. I’m so sick of never achieving any goals i set for myself.

I really have to sort myself out, stop being so lazy you silly girl!

Maybe I should be at the gym instead of searching for ideas on this….lol