stop crying all the time

I’ve been “sensitive” since i can remember, crying when i get upset, or mad or frustrated or even happy. I JUST WANT TO STOP!! I feel like everyone thinks I can’t cope with life, i’m just a cry baby, but really i just don’t know how to control my emotions… I do have to say though. I have gotten better. So i do have hope.

I’m working in a foreign country for a year, and it’s been intense alienation at times. One day I’ll be fine and feel well adjusted the next I’ll want to burst into tears at the slightest provocation. I’m dating a foreign man and I’m paranoid he’s going to cheat on me. He says the most insensitive remarks to me, and thinks it’s a “joke” Today he told me ” You have a big stomach” I’m a size 2, and thin. I don’t understand, he then acted like it’s a big joke. In the mornings he’ll point out when my face is puffy and brings up his worker in conversations saying I look like her except she doesn’t have “rabbit teeth” , I’‘m emotionally on the edge right now, do I get rid of the guy, and then will I feel even lonelier?

I feel so empty, I miss small talk with Americans, I can barely talk to anyone at my job. I miss talking to clerks, restaurants workers, random strangers , my friends. The loneliness is bad. I’ve been crying at my desk when I listen to music and I feel like such a freak. I want to tell myself be strong, get yourself together but my emotions are haywire. UGHHHHhhhHH help!

I guess the good news is that I haven’t been crying too much as of late. Things began to settle down, and the tears weren’t an everyday occurrence. I guess this goal is done for now. :)

I’m crying. I’m just so hard on myself sometimes. I’m so over crying already, lol. It’s just that these last 2 months have been so….....just so. And I focus WAYYY too much on the negative. See? I know these things…..it’s just getting the waterworks to stop, lol.

It was a pretty good week. I went 6 whole days without crying. But now I’m crying. Ugh. I’ve just gotta stop letting myself get so frustrated all the time, lol!

...I have been crying so much lately. Things have been so stressful. Now usually, I have a big cry every now and then, but now it’s like every other day or every day. But I’m gonna remain positive and try to be optimistic, lol. :-)

I really wish I would stop crying.

Now that i have a job i’m busy but i’m prego so i still cry but not every night thank god

this is so hard for me. I am a very explosive person, and whenever i get into fights with my mom, i always end up crying. maybe its because she is calling me fat and stupid, i dont know, but i cant help it. and then yesterday, i was crying from 9 until 2 because i found out that my ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend… we broke up 2 weeks ago… and dated for a year and a half… and oh yeah… i was suspicious of this girl back in december when my friend told me they were flirting with eachother, which made me wonder if i was living under a shell and he was cheating on me or what. UGHHHH. i hateeee crying all time! its so evil and makes me look so ugly when im done! not to mention its a pain going through 80 billion tissues.

when your whole family is miles and miles away, when you own son isnt even with you on the holdidays, when your ex husband is taking advantage of you loss of attendace and telling your son that his mom is a peice of shit, and your parents are trying as hard as they can as grandparents to remind your son that mommy being away doesnt mean that she doesnt love him, shes getting this training, “schooling” because she loves him, and is trying to make herself a better person. so instead of seeing your young sons smiling face as he turns the corner and hsi eyes light up from all the presents under the tree, your sitting around a bar table miles and miles away froms your family and son, thinking about how much you want to hold him, and how shittiy of a parent i feel like for not being there with him right now, feeling like a shitty parent because this year his dad didnt even put up a tree, that since ive been gone my parents have sad that sometimes he is sad.
its not evnough to make me just cry all the time, its enough to make me what to kill myself, when at times like this i can not see a means to an end.