write my book

and a new muse ^{^
finally fallen completely for him, and so i had to write him into my book. just had no idea how.
Then i was falling asleep at his place one night (on the f-ing chair/stool/chair setup, nonetheless) and in the semi-conscious half-dream state right before i fell completely asleep, his character just formed itself, whole and complete, with major plot points included. straight out of my mind.}

I sat straight up (not an easy task the way this ‘bed’ was set up – no complaints lol) said “Im an F-ing Genius!” and startled the hell out of the roommate. Hes like… what you forget? whats wrong?
and i take my knows-everything answer book (lols) and write this fully formed character down in notes.

next day, i wrote out his character profile, sketch out the major plot-point scenes, and – on top of all that, further developed the lead character, how/when she was adopted, a better explanation of her oddities, and wrote out about a half a page of THE VERY BEGINNING of the story. ^
well, the very beginning as im going to tell it. theres always cause and effect, blah blah blah. BUT progress was made. ^^

I am combining two of my goals, as the essays will be incorporated into the book. Just need a bit of pressure to get moving on it!

This is the story of a girl, Lillian Kavanaugh.
All she wants is to be normal, and she is anything but.
Adopted by her aunt, Lillian is the only known member of the family to not have even a single Spark of magic. Her father is unknown, but he must have been an outlander, because of her fate-Marked red hair and strange, grey eyes. She stands out, but really isn’t anything special. At least, thats what everyone tells her. And so she believes.
So, when a mysterious and handsome Seth Wolff comes to her, charms her, and tells her that she is spoken of in a prophecy of epic proportions, she doesnt know what to think. At first swept up by his charms and promises of glory, she soon finds that while the prophecy may (or may not) be real, Wolff and his life are not.
So once again, Lillian tries to find a ‘normal’ life: she apprentices to a healer, something shes always been good at, and with her new mistress travels across the sea to the foreign lands, where Lillian tries to leave her past behind her and start fresh.
Time passes, and Lillian grows into a strong, capable woman, with a decent, comfortable (if boring) life. Every now and then, the past and the prophecy try to intrude into her new world, but for the most part, she is capable of ignoring it all.
But when word reaches her that her aunt, her foster mother, is close to dying, she has no choice but to return home. And as she does so, everything that she had tried to leave behind comes rushing in. Wolff, the prophecy, the wars. And finally, her own magic Spark.

I have picked it back up, but do not have the discipline to write I used to have

I have two more books of the Bible to finish reading, before I pull out my notebooks and underlined Bible and start writing about my path in the last 5 years.

oh, I just started this.
It’s so heavy.

I’ve got quite a few idea’s, and I’ve written them all down. So now all I have to do is sort through them and pick the one I am most inspired to write about. Wish me luck!!

Its written on paper, i need to type it and i have typed seven pages, including a prologue just every time i go back to looking at what i have typed i always think “this really sucks i’m a good writer but this really sucks…” and i cant get any good ideas so i just… don’t write… its hard feeling like this. writing is my life, along with art and theater, if at all moreso than both. why can’t i get myself to just write and trust that im a good writer?

Have motivated myself enough to write the prologue and a page of the first chapter. I guess this is going to take a lot longer than I thought it would, but I think it’s going to be worth it.

I rather like the idea of the Golden Cedar…and then there’s the Golden Seagull…and to finish it off…The Golden Triangle.