complete my top 10 goals

I have two goals that I did not complete.

I did not ose 40 lbs and even if I could between now and the 31st of december, I don;t think that would be very healthy. I also did not walk the beach in SC again. That one is still a possibility, I have a few days left of vacation an a friend who can get me a buddy pass on the airline.

my punishment will have to wait until the new year.

I sit here at night and play around on the internet. I remember the enthusiasm I had for all of these goals when I made each on fo them. I also recall the enthusiasm of having this time at night to reflect upon my life, and to find ways to make it better. I feel like I have become caught up in all the minueta that this place and the internet goofing around can bring into your life. Waiting for the replies, waiting for a cheer, a post, a joke, waiting. Stupidity. I have this time to create in my mind the life I want, and I am wasting it away.

that whole “lose 10 pounds” at a time to reach my 40 pounds is not working very well. I just lost 6 pounds and then had a very busy, stressful week with a nice hormonal event thrown in there and I gained 3 1/2 pounds back. Which is crazy when you think about it, because there is no way in hell that I ate enough food to gain 3 1/2 pounds!!! So the new thing is lose 5 pounds at a time. I don’t know if that will help but damn, anything new might work. So I started this thing at what? 185 or 186 something like that but I weigh 183 right now, so lets begin there. AGAIN!!! aghhh

yah! We are going to keep working on the lose weight one but I am going to give some considerable thought to the SC vacation. I need to do this. I need it aned I deserve it. Time to figure out how to do it.

I have lost weight before. I know how to do it. I know I can do it. I have the knowledge and a history of accomplishing this. So, I have spent money on a trainer to tell what I am doing is right, I have read enough “real” articles, not advertisements to know what to eat, what to stay away from, how much to exercise. I knwomy target heart rate, the safe zone, my abilities and the limitations of my age. So why am I messing with it? I know the answer, count the calories, eat less, exercise more, stay away from animal fats, combine weights with the cardio, do things you enjoy, be consistent

Well, what are you waiting for girl? Stop doubting what you are doing, stick with what works and stay with it for a long enough time to see what is working and what is not.

Most importantly say no! If it isn’t in your plan, say no!

During a great conversation the other day, somebody asked me ‘What are you commited to?” It got me thinking. I am commited to providing a warm safe norishing place for my kids to grow up. Whatever that takes. These goals are important o me. What I am questioning is beyond that. Am I committed to these goals? Really commited to taking better care of myself? Losing the weight? Working only one job?

My conclusion to this question is commitment. If I really want to accomplish these goals, they need to be more than just important in my life. I need to be committed to accomplishing them. That is my new motto. It used to be “responsibility” I am going to change it to “commitment.” Let’s see what effect that has on my life.

let’s start with my fitness assistant, setting caloric goals, hitting the weights and cardio a little more seriously. Diligence, persistance and consistency will be the key components to accomplishing this goal.

I was beginning to worry if I was going to get this accomplished since spring was coming up so fast. I was very nervous about taking my car so far away with it being so new and it is so old and I am not really certain about it’s quirks and stuff. I have a sore neck and arms becasue iw as so tense driving all teh way up there. It may also have to do with the fact that I was a little nercous driving standard since I am still so new at that as well. I did accomplish so much though. it was a few goals all wrapped up into one. I am feeling so good today.

but many of the others, like visit Hawaii, train ride across Canada, Visit Paris with my kids as adults look so far away. I feel that they do nothing but “remind” me that one day I would “like” to do this. I guess I have to say that there are hundreds of things I would like to do, but are they really goals?? I have to wonder if I am not stealing my time from something much more important.

I vowed to do this for 28 days, and so I have and I will continue to do so as it has been a big tool in my self-esteem goal

I must say that #2 & #3 are looking pretty good, as well as #4.