To live instead of exist

It’s really hit me recently. It’s so easy to say that I want to “live life to the fullest”, but what does that really mean? How is living a full life different from how I’m living right now?

I’m making actual goals now. I’m not going to let my fears, or shyness, or depression or apathy keep me from enjoying day to day. I’m going to stare those obstacles right in the face and do things.

I’m going to get involved. If something is making me unhappy, I’m going to remove that from my life.

Most importantly, I’m going to stop criticizing myself. I’m going to start each day with positive affirmations, acknowledge my achievements, and celebrate them! I’m going to focus on the positive, instead of dwelling on what could have been or what went wrong.

There’s so much to be excited about!

Everytime i try to do this i end up getting stressed out.
“am i living right now? am i having enough fun right now? is this moment exciting enough? what can i do to make it more exciting?.. eh.. i dunno”
it feels like im forcing myself to do something fun and worthwhile.
Its probably just cause I’m lazy… oh well

Up until very recently I simply existed. But, man, I’ve made some drastic changes in my life and finally feel like I’m living. It’s so rare for me to get outside myself so completely that I am only living in that moment.

In fact, when it begins to happen, it’s so foreign that I notice it almost right away and feel disoriented. But, the more it happens the more comfortable I am with it.

I think it’s called…. letting go.

what a life , can i really make it to become a motivational speaker or just a role model,GOD why does life get the best of me, is there a solution cant get back to my ex why??

That is what started my list of everything i want to do before i die. I want to hold on to life for all its worth, even if that requires me to risk it all.
Well, “we don’t know what we’ve got till its gone.” Which made me think what am i going to think, and what will everyone else say about the life i lived? I want them to be proud of my life, and it would be complete if the life i led inspired just one person.

I want to get a life. I am going to start doing more things to get my adrenaline pumping. Also, loads of people i know are cunts to me and other people. I am going to learn to fight, and then kick their asses.

i really feel like i just float along, ive got a 9-5 job and im already loosing who i am, im just a robot for society. i ned to quit my job and go travel. im only 19 too, too early to feel this way

Today I met up with a friend after work and went for hot chocolate with marshmallows! So delicious, and so good to catch up with her. We cycled home together afterwards and reminisced about how we used to cycle home together after ballet classes, we must have taken that route hundreds of times, summer and winter, sun and rain. That’s how you get to know someone, spending seemingly insignificant time together. I miss that.

Really all I did today was go to class, discuss philosophy, watch the Matrix, discuss the philosophy of the Matrix, and then sit with my friends and eat lunch on ‘The Green’ (a large patch of grass at my University)... I felt really alive today. I felt as though I could do anything, but that I was happy where I was.

I ran through a fountain and got soaking wet. My friends didn’t care and neither did I. I felt like doing it, so I did it. It was amazing. :)