Inspire and Contribute with My Writing

I’m an ocean,
Never ending and vast.
As far as there is to see,
There is more.
I’m deeper than the wildest dream.
The Universe exists within my waves;
The tides that tickle your toes,
The breeze that calms your soul.
I’m an ocean,
Expanding with every breath.

I got an opportunity to contribute to a book project about depression today. It sounds like something that would inspire and comfort anyone going through depression. Although I’ve been fortunate to have never been in the depths of depression, this feels right and I’d like to contribute by being a source of comfort to someone.

I want to joyously celebrate my life and inspire others to do the same. This is why I want to be a writer.

My interview today went well. Myself and the interviewer were both very candid about what we were looking for. There may be a possibility of future work with this company. Like the last interview though, this wasn’t a perfect fit. I wasn’t totally clear what she was looking for in a writer, just that she was hoping for someone with more experience. I disagree that experience guarantees talent. Still, I liked her and that she warmed to me half way through the interview.

I was nervous in the beginning and struggled to get my positives across and then when I felt that it wasn’t going to happen, I let go and the interview took a happy upturn. When I didn’t care, I became relaxed and enjoyed our conversation. Even though nothing is likely to come of this, the interview gave me some thoughts on whether I’m aiming my writing in the right direction.

Do I truly want to stay in marketing when I have strong issues with consumerism? Why not write in the style that inspires me? I love exploring and being challenged by personal growth. How can I get into writing in this area? I’m going to explore this possibility. I’d rather be a source of inspiration than a pusher of consumption.

I’ve fallen on this goal. After sending out numerous companies my writing portfolio, the response is less than I expected. Now, I’m trying to think of new ways to get myself known to people who need freelance writers. I’ve basically lost steam since the New Year, where I was pumped. Now it’s becoming harder and harder to motivate myself. There must be another, better way to do this!

I got a message today that might lead to writing work. I’m so excited! I hope this works out, my bank account is dwindling into the red alert zone. I’m grateful for this happy feeling.

I have to stop taking my life, my education, my opportunities for granted. Excuses come up whenever I hit an obstacle and don’t have the courage to move through them – I’m finding myself, the right opportunity will find me…etc, are all things I say to myself to justify my inaction. I’m incredibly lucky just to be able to do this at all. People all over struggle to live day to day, and here I am spending all my time in dream land. I must not take my life for granted. It’s an insult to the hard work and sacrifices my parents did to ensure that I was well educated. It’s time to move and dare.

Last night while trying to fall asleep amid my upstairs neighbour’s racket, a writing possibility popped into my head. It came out of nowhere and it could potentially be big for me. Now I need to do some good reasearch so I can be ready to promote myself when everyone is back from holidays in January. Every time I thought about this opportunity today I felt and am still feeling elation, like my soul is saying “YES!” in the affirmative.

I haven’t been pusuing this goal as much as I can. Truthfully, I’m not sure how to get more freelance writing jobs. I’ve only ever written for the last company that I worked for and after what’s happened, I don’t want to work with the b@#@$ ever again. Still, I have faith that something will come to me or I’ll find the opportunity.

This goal is stagnant so far. I’m not sure where to go from here to achieve this goal.