Accept the abundance of the Universe

I’m starting to dance with the Universe. Lately I’m really starting to enjoy every part of my day. Flowing with it is how I’d describe the feeling. Everything feels good, even in moments that I’d rather ignore, I end up learning something. I’m dancing. I’m dancing! I still need more time to fully get into the groove of flowing – one month was just the beginnig to this challenge. It was the appetizer. I’m going to keep this goal, perhaps forever.

There’s so much to experience when I soak in a moment. Our annual fantabulous jazz festival is on right now, and I went downtown today to catch a free live show during lunch. I brought some sushi with me and enjoyed it while listening to some great musicians. There was this amazing trumpeter on stage and he reminded me of Miles. When he was doing one of his crazy solos, I let go of everything to experience it completely and I was astounded by how much power was in the music. In that moment, I felt everything, like I was touching the Universe. I was surrounded by sound and feeling and knowing. I’m still in awe of that moment.

Accepting abundance is also to lavishly give it away. It really hit me that this is how the Universe works – we give and then receive. Life is meant to flow freely because you can’t take anything with you to the afterlife. Living is the opposite of hoarding and accumulating. I get it! I’m supposed to give my love and compassion and time away generously. This is the only way that abundance can flow. It goes back and forth, the more I give the more it’ll come back. The phrase “Give and you shall receive” just ran through my head. Whenever I heard this before it always made me roll my eyes because it sounded so cliche, but now I understand. It’s scary, the thought of opening my emotions like this, but I’ll try. Because I can’t take it with me.

I see abundance in the majestic blue sky. It’s been smiling down for weeks now. For months we had grey, dull and drab, now we have light. Soaking in it feels good. And everything around looks more vibrant, alive under its rays. I feel more alive. Thank you.

Laughter is nice, and seeing it everywhere I looked made me feel that life is good. No matter the paranoia from the daily news, life is good. Two glowing woman laughing arm in arm, knowing each other so well that they fill in the gaps of each other’s stories. A group of friends playing guitar while a lake glistened to their song. Friends laughing and tossing smiles to each other. Life is good.

It’s in seeing beyond the wall of materials and aiming for the truth behind them. The material things that I crave carry a hidden truth for me; they speak to my inner wants that flow through me in whispers. I have to be completely silent to hear them. I have to concentrate to see them.

When karate experts break solid wood with their bare hands as if they were breaking twigs, they’re aiming for what’s beyond the wood, and that makes the task possible. To aim solely at the wood block would break their bones. So I’m aiming my energy, thoughts, and passions beyond my solid block. Everything that I want has a hidden meaning that drives me to act. I’m opening to these whispers and letting them lead me beyond the wall.

I was meditating this morning and I had a glorious moment where I lived the life that I want. It felt like I was transported into this life where I was happy and completely rooted in my life. I felt solidly content. I saw myself laughing while walking down the street. This moment felt amazing because it truly happened for me. It wasn’t me trying to be something else – I was that person, living the life. I want to go there again. It was so real.

I’m falling into my writing groove. This afternoon, I felt sparkling joy when I sat down to write my latest writing assignment. It’s the best feeling in the world. I finally get what it means to be aligned with the Universe and to flow with life. I’m flowing along with my waves. It feels good. It feels right. And I’m contented and happy. My cup is full.

When one door fades another opens. This current client went back on his word again, so now we’re at an impasse. I’m going to finish the work with him and then see how I feel about moving forward. He doesn’t seem to understand the value of integrity and keeping his word. I’ve learned from this experience that I can separate my emotions and act professionally and with clarity. I know that I did the right things throughout and didn’t let it become a drama. I still like him as a person, but I don’t trust him anymore.

As this was happening, I got another offer from a client that I trust and worked well with before. So one lesson learned and a new one begins. Thank you, Universe.

Riding on the subway, I was thinking about my finances and feeling wonderful about it. I knew that I’d be taken care of, it was a feeling of trust in everything. Even though my bank account is still the same, I’m fully assured that everything is going to be great. I keep walking into stores like Pretty Woman on a shopping spree, and it’s my rational mind that pulls me out the door. But something keeps telling me that things are going to be great. When I got home there was an email from a client asking me if I wanted another writing assignment. Yes!, I replied.

I’m starting to trust.