ask out someone/be asked out on a date

Well, a week ago I ended up on a date with an old crush of mine that I hadn’t seen in awhile… I didn’t count that cause it kind of just happened. But I sent him an email this weekend about doing something this weekend and it sounds pretty likely! I’m kind of pumped for that. He seemed just as into me if not more as I was into him, so I guess time will tell, right?

I’m going to try put myself out there more and more, cause the more times I put myself out there, the more times someone is going to take the bait. I need to be less afraid. But taking that first step and getting positive feedback was half the challenge.

I’ve danced with him for a while, and we’ve become friendly, and we have a great deal in common . . . and I fell for him. So I asked him if he’d like to have coffee together sometime, and he was noncommittal. He said he’d have to check his schedule. I gave him my number and e-mail address, but I guess, speaking rationally, I’ll have to take that as a “No.” Not a “No, I’m scared of you,” but a “No, but I’m nice enough not to act shocked about it.” Still, he did let me babble on for a minute or two before taking his leave. I feel awkward, but I also feel like I’ve expressed confidence. It’s a weird mixture of sensations. The irrational, emotional side of me wants to hope that he’ll call or write. Damn! I hope I won’t get too goopy about all this, but I have a feeling that a certain amount of goopiness lies in my future, just because it’s really the first time I’ve ever put myself out there.

So, I didn’t exchange numbers BUT I did tell him about my website: Bviews, which he seemed really interested in and told me he’d check out. I am obsessed with checking out my web stats daily and that night somebody went to the site via googling bview!!! Ummmm… coincidence? I don’t think so. I think the boy googled me! :D

I mean, it’s nothing big, but it’s definitely a start. I <3 boys (and girls) who show an interest in what's important to me and go the extra mile to check it out. :D

I tried, I really tried!!

So I go up to the boy and I tell him that I feel bad we don’t get to talk more. And he pulls out his phone and starts fiddling with it with a big smile on his face saying “WEll!!! That’s—.” And all I can think is “Wow, this is going to be so easy, he’s going to ask ME for my number, sweet!”

Then suddenly a girl comes up and stands next to him and he shoves his phone in his pocket and says “because we got to do that swing dancing thing…” and he does this awkward little dance and all I can think is “Fuck, I totally missed my opportunity!!

Ahhh well, no coffee and movie chatting for me. Good news? They went home in separate cars so I don’t think he’s a dog asking for numbers behind his girlfriend’s backs. They definitely had an awkward goodbye moment not a “I’ll see you when you’re home, honey” moment.

So, now I just need to run into him AGAIN outside of swing to see if he wants coffee with yours truly. I’m hoping yes.

I’m so afraid when it comes to my heart and I am afraid that I’m becoming closed off and unable to take chances with the people that really matter to me. If I don’t do something about this soon I’m afraid I’ll continually draw further and further into myself.

So here it is, my goal. To ask someone out/be asked out and get back out there. I need to build confidence again!!

There is a boy I wouldn’t mind seeing outside of my class tomorrow. I’ve seen him a few times at shows and stuff and we seem friendly enough. I might ask him if he wants to catch a movie, lunch or just coffee sometime over the weekend.

He likes me. It’s all good.

A “must do” in the grand scheme of things.

at work that I’ve become pretty friendly with and I’d like to ask him out but I’m too shy – or, rather, afraid of being knocked back – so I’ve taken to flirting outrageously with him in the hope that he’ll do the asking instead. Either that or he’ll just think I’m desperate and will start avoiding me!